Thoughts On Life And Myself

Nothing but a friend

I realized today that I will never be anything
But a friend.
A third wheel.
The person nobody really thinks about
Until they need a problem solved.
Because I understand.
I understand more
Than I get credit for.
I have felt with heart break
And pain
And suffering
I have felt happiness
And joy
But not in a while.
I understand what it is like to have your heart ripped out
And stomped on
And the person doing it?
Has no idea.
Everyday I see them
Smiling
Laughing
Enjoying the company of somebody who loves them
And I am here.
Ready for the second they need help
What are friends for?
Right?
I am here for anyone who needs help
But whenever I need help
Nobody gives a damn.
I am sick and tired of never being good enough
Pretty enough
Smart enough
Perfect enough
Nice enough.
I am never enough.
And I am sorry.
I will never be the girl you need.
But I promise
To the bottem of my heart and back
I will be there for you
Always.