Hypothetically Thinking

Note 1- Regrets

What if you were to leave me today, let's say you get hit by a car and the doctors stated that you didn't make it, once you see the light..would you regret hurting me and wished you would've did better? Do you wish you would've stop playing with my emotions...I have no regrets cause I loved with my all my heart and all my soul, i put all of my energy into you. Take the time to love me....so 'what if?' wont turn to "What did happen"

India🌺🍃 -January 9th 2010, Age:17

I glanced out of my window, as my boyfriend pulled up in his mother's 2010 escalade that was colored a night black; joy transformed my face as I grabbed my purse and ran down stairs into the living room in the hurry, excited to see him.

I reached my front door and started turning the knob to open it, but was stopped by my mother who's heavy set a feet were pounding againts the hardwood floor.

"Where you goin'?" She asked as she patted her head, with a ciggarate secured between her pointer and middle finger. She had on a short white robe that was slight open, exposing her under garments.

"I'm just going with Jay, were going to the movies. I should be back around nine." I lied

She rolled her eyes as she walked as she strided by me and sat on the couch.

"I can go right?" I shaked my leg anxious to leave.

"I told you that little boy doesn't love you....don't know why you running behind him like you some type of Bonnie, but whateva. All he do is sell dope, you should want better for yourself India" Her brows knitted together as she reached her arm over to coffee table and put out her cigarette.

"Alright by mom" I sarcasticly smiled as I exited the house and took my time walking to Jerell car, it annoys him when I take all day. But I love annoying him because it comes off as fun to ke.

"Hey" I mumbled as I got in and put on my seat belt and closed the heavy door shut. I looked into his hazel eyes as he mugged me and lit his ciggarate. He looked stressed and

"You got some pretty eyes boy" I cheesed as I slightly chuckled.

"Why you so goofy I hate that shit man" he shook his head and pulled off, then he begin blasting his music. I turned back down and thumped his head.

"Well damn...im sorry that im in a good mood. Can we go out to eat."

"Yeah but first I wanna go to my crib....and then were gonna go out to eat."

"Alright"

"Why were you so late?" I asked.

"Had to make a run" He replies.

I shook my head, Jay is a year younger then me, we've been on and off since I was thirteen, I hated they he sold drugs and jacked cars for a living, I think he could do better with his self. He was probably the richest kid at school, he has so much money and material things. I always wonder why he wastes his time on me when he can have any girl he wants.

"You know the car wash is hiring."

"Don't wanna work there."

I pulled my art book out of my book bag and went to a certain page, I was hoping it would catch his attention, but he never pays my talent any mind.