Behind The Scenes Love

Chapter 9

CHAPTER 9

POV DREA

After a long time of cleaning and goofing off the door bell finally rings.

Me and des give each other a look then run over to the door. Somehow she beats me and opens it for the boys.

Louis, Harry, zayn, and Niall run in with a bunch of cleaning supplies. "Who's ready to get there clean on?!" Niall yells as he does the shimmy.

"Shhhh!" I say playfully hitting him "destiny's sister is upstairs sleeping!" I whisper.

"Oopsies." He says running to the kitchen. "I'll clean the kitchen!" He calls.

"Shut up Niall!" I say laughing and following him. Louis and Zayn take the living room. Then Harry and Des take all the other small rooms we were in. I spray all the counters as Niall sponges them. Then I wipe them up with a paper towel.

As I start doing some of the dishes Louis is leaving in the sink Niall asks "so drea want to go out to eat sometime?"

Yes my perfect opportunity to get a boyfriend. Niall is extremely cute too. From his golden hairs with the perfect streaks of brown to the amazingly beautiful blue orbs.

"Sure that would be cool." I say playing it off.

"Sweet." He says. "Know any good restaurants?"

"What's the price range?" I ask him.

"Whatever."

"Okay that's tempting..." I say turning to him and lifting an eyebrow.

"What are you thinking? Don't make me broke!" He practically yells.

"Shhh! What have I told you?! And it's a cool restaurant. Fancy. Waves crash on the walls it's cool." I tell him.

He smacks my butt with a towel.

"WHERE DID YOU EVEN GET THAT?!" I yell at him laughing.

"Shhhh. Be quiet drea! Stop being so loud." He says smiling.

I get so frustrated. "You can't... I've been... That's not.... Ugh fine ill be quiet. But that's not how it works."

"How about ill pick u up at 8 tomorrow? Is that how it works?" He asks.

I check the clock. "We'll since its 12:14 does that mean tomorrow or today?" I ask smiling then winking.

"Ugh today you smart ass." He says.

"Your not starting out so well." I say shaking my finger.

"Oh it will be the greatest night of your life." He says.

"I don't know I've had some pretty great nights." I say with a big cheeky smile. He hits me in the butt with the towel again.

"Blondie. I sware to god.... Just clean!" I tell him laughing. He chuckles then starts wiping the counters again. I pick up some of the trash on the floor once I'm done with the dishes.

After that the kitchen looks basically spotless. Me and Niall go sit on the couch to order Louis and zayn to clean faster. I cross my legs on the coffee table then say "Louis. Peasant your missing things." Then I start pointing out the red solo cups everywhere.

"Drea so help me..." Louis says and me and Niall laugh.

"Got a problem? Come on Louis she's just joking." Niall says.

"I wish Eleanor will get here so she can distract drea from making fun of me." Louis says.

"OOOOH WHEN DOES ELEANOR GET HERE?!" I yell.

"Drea!" Niall says covering my mouth.

"Um 2 days." Louis says.

"I have no idea where perrie is right now." Zayn says.

I move nialls hand from my mouth "me Eleanor and perrie are going to get along so well!"

"Great. You better share her!" Louis says.

"And you better share perrie too!" Zayn says.

"I can't promise anything boys." I say with a wink.

Zayn and Louis look at each other than groan.

"Sorry boys." I say yawning then closing my eyes. After a little while I feel warm arms wrap around me then slowly drift asleep.

POV ELEANOR

I curl into a ball on my bed. Tomorrow I get on a plane to see Louis early and I'm so glad. I've felt so empty inside. I've gotten so much hate and it's eating me inside. People think Louis and Harry love each other more than me and Louis. Maybe it's true. Maybe Louis loves Harry more than me. Not in a boyfriend way but in a best friend way.

People call me ugly and I am. My thigh gap is extremely ugly. Everyone just calls me a beard. I feel empty and broken. Tears stream down my face.

I miss how things used to be when people would care only of the boys and their music.

Now things have drastically changed. Louis will call me with a broken voice and I can tell he's crying. We both need some hope. The tears keep coming.

All I want is to hold Louis without hate. To love him without being called Tina or Gretchen. Ya sorry I changed my hair color. Smile at him and have fun with Louis without being called a beard. But no one gets what they want in this world do they?

I grab the knife by my bed side. The cold handle giving my body chills. I slowly rip it past my high thigh. My skin breaks and red blood slowly comes out in sections. Does it hurt? Of course. But this pain I can handle. I can control. Unlike the hate "directioners" are giving me.

I promised Louis I wouldn't cut because of this. But as some people say... I've been strong for too long.

I make one last long streak along my leg. Then I set down the cold handle by my bedside and stare at the red blood all over the clean silver. I try to clean up some if the blood but it gets all over my hands.

I stand up and wipe it off with a paper towel then grab my phone to call Louis.

AUTHORS NOTE

SORRY FOR NOT POSTING

I REALLY DON'T THINK YOU GUYS READ THIS SO I STOPPED POSTING. TELL EVERYONE SO I WILL POST AGAIN XOXO