Dan's the jockish bad boy. But Phil still the good boy/smol bean of sunshine.
When Dan gets caught up in a dare. He develops feelings he's never felt before. He wants to make it his duty to make Phil feel special and be the one to show him things...
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(phil's p.o.v)
I knew it. I knew it some how I would be a fool and out myself like that. I new I had a bad feeling about this. that I was going to be another freak at this school. I really liked it so far. Eventho it was still hell I didn't get beating up everyday and thrown up against the lockers. I got weird looks and aggressive stares but I'm the new kid so I really was expecting this. It was kinda of nice. I guess.
Don't call me crazy but I kinda of like all the stares I get and the. It's the only attention I ever get. The only thing that tells me that people notice me. It hurts ALOT MORE than its worth tho. I just say things like that to see the bright side of things. I start thinking about my terrible life. Then it hits me.
"I just came out to someone who's going to out me.
I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I screw up everything. There are reasons why my dad's gone.
Reasons why I got beating up all the time in school.
There's reasons why I don't belong on this earth.
I'm selfish. The first time I came out. I did it on purpose so I can live my life free and how I wanted it. I'm selfish to think that if I was to come out I would get good results. But guess what.
It didn't.
my mom. The person I love the most. Walked in my room while had my shirt off. She flipped when she saw my body plastered with midnight black and blue bruises. I couldn't keep a strait face. I started crying like the baby I am. See told me she's not dealing with any one who hurts you and then said
"when you said people at school call you names you never told me this was going on."
She told me she didn't even have to know the reason for all the blackish yellowing bruises all she wanted was to keep me safe.
I betrayed her. She wanted to keep me safe from all the suffering. But it's going to be back.
I've been thinking to much lately. I unhook the latch to the stall. I have been sitting in here for the past 20 minutes. Re-living all the problems I've cause for everybody. My mom. I walk to the sink and splash cool water on my face it's refreshing and for a second makes me forget everything in my so called life.
I ruin EVERYTHING THAT COMES MY WAY. Why can't you be normal and stop being so selfish.
I keep replaying these thoughts in my head. And it hits me
DAN.....
We'll he spill my secret. Maybe everything we'll be fine if he doesn't.
But then again he doesn't know me. Why would he do that when he hates me. He probably only asked me that for more gossip to talk about.
I look at my self in the mirror why was I born. I'm nobody.
I ramble to my self about how I'm worthless. And why was I born like this. And how I no the reasons people don't except me because I Don't need to even be living in this world anyways so I don't blame them.
I look hard in the mirror and then I notice a figure in it. I didn't even here the door open how long was he standing here. I turn around to see............
************************************ Who is it. Is it dan or is he in class. Could it be the janitor or a teacher. Or even phil's mum. I don't even know.
If it was sam he would be all like. " yea keep talking. you're right your nothing. you fag."
"It's just a prank bro."
Ok my lovelys.
I see you guys tomorrow or maybe today don't even know.
