"Poetry"

Those Damn Grey Eyes

Every thing was fine when I was a little girl

Until daddy died and left me in the big bad world

Everything changed

Mommy became a drunk

She literally doesn't give a fuck

I met this guy

I made him turn a blind eye

I didn't tell him the reason I cried at night

Not a word was spoke of all the bones she broke

Not to mention all the blades and scars she awoke

Until one time when she drove off fast

He came in and wiped my eyes as I forgot about the past

I got lost in his big blue eyes

That reminded me of the old days' summer skies

The days when someone was there to care,

and when Dad TRIED to braid my hair

I never knew that someone would ever again

Be there, To hold my hand and wipe my tears

And make me forget about all my fears

Because he cares.

When he saw my wrists that's where he kissed

He kissed away my pain, and then change started again

His eyes no longer the color of the sky

Instead they were dark and gray and all of his sweetness stated to fade

In those gray eyes stood a great guy disguised

Disguised by lust

No more trust

Our relationship fell apart in our hands

That night he stole the few things I still had

My identity was as changed as hurt was my pride

And the part that hurt the most is that he lied

He didn't care about me, it was very clear to see

All he gave me was a baby

That he killed along with me

The pain grew and he never knew

He killed not only my small smile

But his only child

They found him on my last night

Though he put up a great fight

He was sentenced to death

What he knew best

But then I saw the old look he had that night of our kiss

I could tell he was angry about all the years he had missed

I knew then we would truly be missed

And not by a fist but that guy I kissed

It was too late for sorries, but perfect time for goodbyes,

To all the boys I've loved before

p.s. I still love you

Especially the one with the beautiful gray eyes

Those that stood as such an amazing disguise