"Senpai Please Don't Notice Me"

Chapter 4: "Nobody"

Hiroki made his way over to Nowaki's house, going by through the side. Seeing the latter already up against the house by Nowaki's window.

'Wonder what he really wants to talk about...'

Even though Hiroki wouldn't admit it, he kinda wished Nowaki was missing him for real.

Hiroki climb up the latter carefully, going on top of the roof. Seeing there was already a blanket laid across the flat roof area.

"Nowaki-senpai?"

"Right here!"

Nowaki smiles waving at him, sitting on the blanket on the roof.

Wearing his favorite black hoodie, black jeans, old jean jacket, gray beenie, and a old pair of vans.

Hiroki flushed 'He looks very-" Hiroki shook his head feverishly. Before he can think any further, he furrow his eyebrows.
"Why are you always wearing so much dark clothes?"

Hiroki sat by him, trying not to get so close to him. But he just gazed up at the sky, watching the colors pink, orange, blue, and clouds mixed together.

Nowaki shrugs smiling "I don't know, I like this color. Kinda describes me somewhat.." He murmurs softly.

Hiroki nods slowly, silently agreeing. 'Darkness does remind me of Nowaki..'

"Thanks for coming, I really appreciate it...I just really needed someone to talk too."

Hiroki looked up at him, his cheeks flushed. But he quickly looks away, nodding. "Whatever it's nothing...is something going on?"

Nowaki gazed up at sky "I don't want to bother you with my problems."

Hiroki frowns at him, hitting him up side the head with his fist. "Too late, spit it out. You're not bothering me. The only bother is not telling me, sitting here looking stupid."

Nowaki laughs a little, rubbing the top of his head. "I'm sorry, it's just-"

Hiroki gazed over Nowaki, worry starting to fill him.

"It's my boyfriend, we keep getting into arguments..."

Nowaki said quietly, Hiroki guessed it was Tsumori. He bit his lip softly "A-About what?"

Nowaki sighs throwing some pebbles down the roof. "I think he's cheating on me..."

Hiroki felt his breath hitch for the moment. But kept quiet, letting Nowaki continue.

"Not only that, he kept complaining about the way I act or my attitude..." Nowaki felt his chest tighten a little.

Hiroki scowls slightly "So he doesn't like you for who you are basically?"

Nowaki chuckles nervously "Yeah something like that." He rubs the back of his neck.

"Then you should break up with him."

Nowaki looked at Hiroki a little serious "I can't do that."

Hiroki felt his heart squeeze, biting his lip. He couldn't refrain himself for talking anymore.

"Why not? You don't deserve someone like that."

"He's like what now?"

Nowaki felt his blood boil slightly. But kept talking in a calm nerving voice.

"Someone who is playing games, and screwed up in the inside basically." Hiroki retorted back nervously, by the way Nowaki's voice sounded.

"Like you..."

Hiroki felt his heart stop hearing those words "W-What...?" He asks a little shakily.

"You act like the same way he does. You're basically him. " Nowaki pointed out, gazing seriously into Hiroki's eyes.

Slap!

Hiroki slapped Nowaki hard across the face. Leaving him stunned, and a red mark on his cheek.

"Hiro-"

Hiroki cut him off "Shut up! I'm nothing like him! I wouldn't be here if I was! I wouldn't care a whole damn lot about you! I wouldn't worry about you! I wouldn't think about you 24/7! I wouldn't sit here or anytime and listen to you! I wouldn't love you-!"

"Y-You love me?" Nowaki asks shocked.

Ba-Thump!

Hiroki stopped himself, his whole face turned bright red, going to the tips of his ears.

"I-"

This time Nowaki cut him off "You're in love with me?" He gazed into his eyes.

Hiroki felt his breath hitch, his bangs shadowing over his eyes. That felt like they were starting to burn.

"N-No..." He lied.

Nowaki stood up getting closer to him, he placed his hand on Hiroki's chest. Making the other flinch away. But Nowaki just grabbed his wrists holding them firmly.

"You're heart is beating fast." Nowaki said softly.

Hiroki gasps quietly, looking down at his feet.

"Y-Yes..."

"Why?"

"B-Because...I love you."

Hiroki felt his heart pounded hard against his chest. He felt like he couldn't breathe.

Nowaki's eyes widen for a moment, squeezing Hiroki's hands in his. "Hiro-"

"But you don't give a damn about me."

Hiroki pulled his hands away from Nowaki.

"All I hear is Tsumori this, Tsumori that. All this time you watch him, like he's the only boy you ever seen! I feel used, just for his replacement! But yet I can't put anyone above you! All you want is him, you need him! And I know I'll never be him...! I hate that I love and want you! You don't care, you never did...how did you never noticed..? That you were slowly killing me?"

Drip...
Drop...

Unknown tears stream down Hiroki's face.

"I hate you." 'I love you.'