"Senpai Please Don't Notice Me"

Chapter 11; "Faker" pt2

Hiroki had just gotten out of the shower, after getting back from work.
Drying off, before using a hairdryer to blow dry his hair.
Before getting dressed.
Putting on an old loose turtleneck green sweater of his.
The end of his sleeves were a bit long, so they hung loosely over his hands.
Simply to put it, the sweater was a bit big for him.
Stopping at his thighs.
He subconsciously covered the gap between his thighs. To grab a pair of underwear.
His face was still flushedred, after what happened at today at work.

'Nowaki..he kissed me..' he closed his eyes for a moment.  Biting his lip, he growled.

'What the hell!! Stupid senpai! He pisses me off seriously! I confessed to him, he then rejects me! But then he gets all jealous and possessive when Haitani-kun kisses me! Drags me off, and then fucking kisses me!? Asshole! God dammit I'm so frustrated! I wanna just sleep! At least the bed and I have a fucking perfect relationship! relationship! Unlike most. Pfft.' Hiroki threw the pair of briefs he was holding in hand at the window.

Before realization hit him 'Oh my god, I just threw my freaking underwear at the wimdow!  Hiroki felt his face heat up furiously, till he can feel the back of his ears burning. He pulled at his hair frustrated
"Fuck my life!"

He threw himself on his bed, still just wearing his sweater, while the lower half of his body was still uncovered and naked.

He buried his flushed face against his pillow, rubbing his thighs subconsciously.
"Gosh dammit Senpai.."
He felt his breath hitch, his voice muffled against the pillow.
Hiding his face deeper against it, his bangs had fallen over his face. His all flushed, as he felt his chest tightening.
His eyes swelling up slowly, feeling the unshead tears pile up in his glistening eyes.

"No..no..no..no..I just want to sleep..not think.."

'Especially about him..'

Hiroki closes his eyes slowly, soon falling asleep.

3 hours later

7:30.p.m

'So warm..why does it feel so warm..? I didn't wrap a blanket around me..wait..didn't I fall asleep...like half naked or something..?' Hiroki opens his eyes tiredly still. His cheeks flushed slightly still.
"M-Mmh..?"

"S-Senpai..?"

BADUMP!

Nowaki was on top of him, hovering over his body. His arms trapping him in place, against the bed.
Hiroki's eyes widen, fully awake now.
Nowaki flinched, his whole face flushed.
A rare expression on his face.

'Why does he look so..shy? No. More likely. What the hell is he doing in my bedroom!'

Hiroki tried to push him away "Oi! W-what the hell are you doing senpai!?"

Nowaki blushed, getting nervous "I-I'm sorry! It was just some dare my brother was testing me!"

Hiroki's face held a shocked expression.

'Some stupid dare..? That's why he's here..? Not cause he..intended it himself..?'

Hiroki bit his lip, feeling his chest tighten. He covered his eyes momentarily, with his arm.

I'm such a fool. I'm an idiot.

He felt his throat tightening, as his eyes started to swell up again.

'You're..so cruel sometimes..'

Hiroki smiles bitterly.

'Pfft..' he wanted to laugh.

'I'm a idiot. I'm too intense...too much of an hard work person to handle. Especially to love..' Hiroki held his breath.

Nowaki grew worried "H-Hiro..I'm sorry..I shouldn't done this..I-"

Hiroki reached up for Nowaki's face, holding it in his hands. He looked up at Nowaki with glistening eyes. A small rare smile on his lips. It was forced. Fake.

"Nowaki-senpai.." he breathed out. "Do you miss him..?"

Nowaki's eyes widen, he swallows slowly. Biting the inside of his cheek.

"Yes.." he whispers barely.

Hiroki slipped his hand over Nowaki's eyes, covering them. 

Before leaning up slightly, lips barely touching.
He felt his warm breath against his lips.

"Fuck me then Nowaki.."

'Let me lick all your wounds..while you dig deeper into my mine.'

Nowaki gasps slightly, Hiroki suddenly felt the wetness against his hand covering Nowaki's eyes.

This isn't love..right?
.. No.. Yes..
Its just the darker part of it..

"Take your clothes off.."

'I'm cruel.'