I really needed to know. I needed to know if I had to remove the baby or what he wanted. I needed to know that he loved me and did not play with my heart all this time. But all he could say was “I don’t need this right now Nathalie. I really don’t need this.” Then he left the hospital, and I was left heartbroken yet again. The doctor gave me an scan home of the baby. This made it harder if I had to remove it. When I got to the hotel room was Liam nowhere to be found. He had left a note “Dear Nathalie. Im sorry that I just left you like that. It was just a choke to me that you are pregnant. I just need some time to think right now. Love Liam.” So I decided to pack my stuff and go home. I didn’t need to face him after this so I left a not saying “I understand Liam, and that is why I have decided to go home and think this through. I am just as choked as you. Don’t think its only you who this is happening to. I am going to be fine. And please don’t call me right away. You need some time alone and so do I, I love you. But I can feel that you don’t need this right now. Love Nathalie.”
Then I left, I didn’t say anything to anyone I just left. I was crying. I had the scan of my little baby. I wanted this baby, but if Liam didn’t want anything to do with this baby, then I don’t think I can. This baby is a sign to me, that I am ready to have a baby. But I wanted to have Liam’s decision in this so I wanted to wait.
I wrote the don’t “Don’t let me go” with some help from my friend Sam McCarthy. We made the music and I called Harry. “Hey Harry I have an offer for you. I have just made this song with Same McCarthy. And I was wondering if you would sing it.” He said yes, and I sent him the lyric on paper and the melody on a CD. Then I got a text from Harry saying “If you can come to the hotel room, then we, could record it in a studio here.” I texted back “Sure I am going to take the next flight” I was going back, but not for Liam, it was for Harry. It was kind of weird to come back after the note. When I was at the hotel I walked by Liam when he was talking with Niall. I was in this silver dress. Heart neckline and short at the bottom. And the red hair. He stopped talking with Niall. He just looked at me. I looked at the ground smiling. I got to Harry’s room and we went to the studio. Everything went fine. Then I started to get sick again. I went out of the studio. I was going to get some water. Harry came out and asked what was wrong. I told him that I was pregnant, he was happy for me. But I wasn’t that happy. I knew that I had pushed a lot since I had found out that I was pregnant.
It was the big show tonight, but I was too weak to go. I heard I nock on the door, I saw Liam. I knew that it was Harry that had sent him. Then all of the sudden I asked him “Do you want to see the scan I got of our baby?” He looked sad and happy at the same time when he said yes. I showed him the picture and pointed at the baby. He looked at the picture and at by belly. Then he put his hand at my belly and said “This baby is just a proof of my love for you Nathalie. I want you and I want this baby. I do love you and I have loved you since the day you told me you loved me. I was just scared of what would happen to us. I really want to work this out.” I knew that this was the start of our relationship. We decided to tell the paparazzi later about the baby. First we needed to move in together.
After the tour and at the wedding will there maybe be some questions, because I don’t think I would fit the dress in a month.
I choice the man and the baby. This is the happiest day of my life. I am having a baby with the man i love and i know i am ready for the baby and the love for Liam have i been ready for in over 4 years.
