A Lost Hope (Louis Fanfic)

Chapter 8- Choices

Leave, you're not the boy you said you’d be

And it’s so hard for me to breathe

How can I love you boy if you’re going nowhere

We’re going nowhere

Going Nowhere- Little Mix

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I rested my head on Louis's chest, listening to his heartbeat as he curled my hair around his finger humming into my ear. After the incident with Keith, Louis had taken me to his hotel room where he had pulled me onto the couch into our current position.

"Why am I always everyone's second choice?" I mumbled softly.

"You're not second best to anyone," Louis replied gazing down at me.

"I was to Lucy... and Hayden," I sniffled. I felt Louis tense at the mention of Hayden's name.

"That doesn't apply to the situation right now," he snapped. I scoffed.

"Oh yeah, cause its not like you cheated on her with me just because I-"

"Dawn, just stop!" He growled. My mouth snapped shut. "You know I'm sorry and that I was never in a relationship with her!"

"Yeah sure," I murmured. He rolled his eyes.

"At least I was able to move on and date again," he smirked. Oh that was it.

"Oh yeah and did you cheat on Eleanor too? Is that why you're single again?" I snapped. I saw the pain flash in his before they were replaced with anger. No not anger. Rage.

"DON'T YOU DARE BRING HER INTO THIS!" He yelled pushing me off his lap and onto the ground.

"Oww," I muttered rubbing my arm and sitting up.

"I don't want to talk about this right now," Louis said pinching the bridge of his nose.

"No! This is the perfect time to talk about this!" I yelled, standing up. I crossed my arms across my chest and blew my hair out of my face as it fell on my nose.

"Stop acting childish," Louis spat standing up as well, his large frame towering over my own.

"I just want to know why!" I screamed, kicking his shin, as tears raced down my cheeks.

"I WAS BEING IMMATURE DAWN! GOSH I WAS DRUNK AND ANGRY AND SHE-"

"Just happened to throw herself on you?" I questioned.

"Yeah..." He mumbled.

"But Louis that doesn't give you any reason to have done it!" I yell.

"HOW DO YOU THINK I FELT? Huh Dawn? How do you think I felt when I woke up, and turned over not seeing your face and realizing what I had done. And you didn't even bother to help me after what I had been through." He replied tossing his hands in the air.

"I didn't know how!" I shout.

"How do you think I felt when I found out my dad had cheated on my mum for the past twelve years of my life! And when I needed you most you were off snogging some random boy!"

"HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT IT WAS A FRIENDLY KISS ON THE CHEEK!" I cried straining my voice. My eyesight began to blur with tears as I heard Louis sigh.

"You know what Louis, I'm done. I just- just can't do this!" I scream furiously wiping my eyes.

I had thought he had changed. After all the shit I had gone through with him I thought maybe for once he would think about how I felt about all this but of course him being "Mr. Popstar" he really just doesn't give a damn. I knew I shouldn't have accepted his offer on Valentines Day... I knew it would lead to this but of course I went against my common sense... So much for having it in the first place.

I grabbed my bag off the glass coffee table in Louis's suite and hobbled to the door. Stupid heels giving me stupid blisters.

"Dawn wait!" Louis cried as I swung open his door. I debated glancing behind me but decided against it. I walked out but felt my wrist get caught in a hand. This time I did look back. Louis's pleading eyes bore into mine.

"I'm sorry," he whispered, "I shouldn't have hurt you in the first place, and I shouldn't hurt you again now."

I turned away blinking back burning tears. I let out a hesitant breath as I felt his eyes burn into me. I glanced back and shook my head.

"We can't keep doing this," I sighed, "How can we move past all this," I flailed my arms around, "If we're going nowhere?"

Louis licked his dry lips and sighed.

"I'm willing to try if you are," he suggested glancing up and staring me straight in the eyes.

A sob broke from my lips as I stumbled forward into his chest. His arms wrapped around my tiny figure pulling me close as I inhaled his cologne. Louis kissed behind my ear as I held him close, afraid of losing him again.

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(A/N) Hi guys! Here is a quick update. It's not as long as I wanted it to be so I decided to make it shorter and just get it up on here all ready.

School starts up soon again for me which means that I wouldn't post very often. On the bright side though I'm getting a new laptop soon which will mean longer updates!!! Writing on my phone sucks because I can't tell how long this is going to be until I post it :(

Anyways I hope to update this one last time before school darts as well as my other story Girl Next Door

Thanks for all your love!

E. xx