Music Sounds Better With You (2Jae)

Chapter 2

I can't stop thinking about the guy, it doesn't help that he's just across the the hall. I sigh, and turn on my Ipod to distract my thoughts. When it turns out that the music isn't enough, I grab my laptop and start typing away trying to get lost in a different world.

Dark, that's all he sees. There's nothing else to look at except the shadows lurking in the moonlight. He hears the sound of nothingness, only yet there's something; he can feel it. There's him. He sees him, he doesn't know what to do. They just stare into each other's eyes, not letting their gaze leave each others. He wanted so badly to just walk to him, to hold him, to make him feel like he belongs, that he's understood by someone in this hateful world. He started to walk towards him, he had to, there was no stopping him.

He was close now. He pulled him into a hug. He held onto him tightly, not wanting to let go. Tears starting to stream from his face. He never felt like this before, never felt comforted. The warmth from the other boy's body turned cold. Through his hands he can feel him starting to slip away from him. He tried to fight back. To keep him close. It didn't work. He disappeared. Just as easily as he appeared before.

Stop it, I remind myself. Just the thought of him was driving me crazy. I have to rethink everything. I mean, yeah, of course I get worked up about people, I always overthink everything. But JaeBum just seems different to me. There was just something about him that makes me want to tell him everything about me, tell him all my deepest darkest feelings, makes me want to give my everything to him without any hesitation. It scares me.

I am officially losing my marbles (what an "old-school" saying, yeah I know, that's just how much he is getting to me). I close my laptop for the night and am about to force myself to go to sleep. I have to get over this somehow.

I lay down in my bed. I still keep my Ipod on, thinking that music, one of only passions, will calm me down. I press shuffle on my music. Just to my luck, "Lay Me Down", by Sam Smith starts to play.

At first I love the beautiful harmony of the instruments playing. When I hear the vocals, I nearly got lost into it. I go into this new world. It's just me and JaeBum there. The lyrics take me on a journey.

Yes, I do, I believe

That one day I will be

Where I was right there

Right next to you

And it's hard

The days just seem so dark

The moon and the stars

Are nothing without you

Your touch, your skin

Where do I begin?

No words can explain

The way I'm missing you

Deny this emptiness

This hole that I'm inside

These tears

They tell their own story

Told me not to cry when you were gone

But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong

I think about what I was like just hours before right now. I was miserable, still am, but at least now I somewhat have hope. Everything was dark before I met this guy. Everyday was hard to get through, but now? I am actually getting antsy about seeing him again. And the fact that he lived just next door? It doesn't help my anticipation.

When the chorus of the song kicks in, I can't help but to sing along. The lyrics just feel so real, I never felt this way before. I get into songs before, I sing the lyrics, I listen to the beat, but I never felt the lyrics, felt the beat. It is a totally new feeling for me; and I like it.

Can I lay by your side?

Next to you, you

And make sure you're alright

I'll take care of you

I don't want to be here if I can't be with you tonight

I sing with all my heart. I don't even care if anyone can hear me. I want to get my feelings out. I don't even care if my neighbors complain about me being too loud. I don't exactly worry about sounding bad, I've been told that I have a beautiful voice before.

I stay like that, just singing my little heart out until I can't take it anymore. And apparently someone else couldn't either. I hear a knock on my door. I suddenly go silent, a blush creeping onto my cheeks just thinking about how I will explain myself.

I answer the door after a quick pep talk to myself. My heart is beating, I had this feeling it was JaeBum. I open the door and let out a huge sigh when I see it is only my friend, TaeHyung, who lives next door.

"Why are you so loud all of a sudden?" He questions.

I just sigh, "Nothing important," I mumble. Even though TaeHyung is my friend, he isn't very close with me, so he won't really pry for information.

"Okay, if you say so," He pats my back and leaves. I let out a sigh and go back inside. I never noticed how much I actually wanted it to be JaeBum at the door until it wasn't. I'm actually a little disappointed while I walk back to my room. I look at the tv to see it was only a little past 7 o'clock, most people don't even think about sleep while I, however, am about to go to sleep right now.

After what feels like hours of trying to go to sleep, tossing and turning, I actually do.

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