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To be or not to be

Well, I'm getting ready to meet his dad and I'm nervous... My moms not home yet but she will, she'll pick me up a cute pair a clothes and she's wearing her best outfit too.

I'm now really nervous because an idea popped in my head what if my mom and his dad bond then we couldn't be together.
No my mom wouldn't do that to my dad, would she? It's been along time since she had attention or love but after my dad I don't think so.

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It's 6:00

We are heading over and we are walking since its so close, he didn't even tell me his house number but I can tell his car is in 60 so we ring on the door bell.

His dad answers and I look at my mom and she has her mouth open and so does he. Huh? They look like they know each other. Odd? Then Ethan tells me to come in since there locking eyes and won't talk to us. I realize Ethan's face is full of tears but I say nothing. There still at the door but he's doing like a no signal with his hand and he nodded his head to me and then Ethan. Do they really think I'm that stupid. Ugh so I speak up.

< What the hell is going on? >
I say
<Um we will explain after dinner.>
Ethan's dad says
< excuse me for a moment Ethan your coming with. >
I take his hand and look for the most private place there is.
< I'm sorry I really am I didn't mean to upset you.>
I say because he starts tearing up even more I don't get it he's so muscular and tough why is he crying.

< it's not you, I just never mind. >
He says
<Ok well do you know what's going on because you obviously might be crying about that.>
I say
< Yeah, but I'll explain after dinner I promise just I don't want you to be upset when you eat.>
Upset? Why would I be upset I'm eating dinner with my crush and his dad and my mom. I get out of the private spot and walk to the dinner table with his directions guiding me. I sit next to him and my mom is still locking eyes with him could my theory be true? No it can't be not after my dad! I'm eating my salad in peace and then the actual dinner comes out. Steak? Never seen that before.
Delicious I lick my fingers and I'm satisfied my new favourite meal my other one was macaroni.
Then we start to speak after dinner cause nobody else will talk I'll start the conversation.
< So can someone tell me what the heck is going on now.>
I say
< well um your dad is still alive apparently and apparently you have a half brother and a real brother, one was adopted the half brother and the real brother was took with your dad. >

My mom says.

What? how? He would of died from cancer if he didn't get killed.
< How do you know this? >
I say
< Well if you look in front of you that's your dad and to your right that's your brother. >
She says. I start bawling because first of all I have a dad and second of all gross I was crushing on my DNA.
< What how impossible no way he would have died of cancer? >
I say trying to wipe off my tears.
< Well it's true your my daughter can I have a hug? >
Ethan's dad says, no my dad if it's even true!
I walk up to him and give him a great big hug realizing that I look practically the exact same but in girl version. This is real and for now I'm going to accept it but how did I not know about my half brother or real brother and how this happened!?!
< Dad I want an explanation please. >
I say not crying but teary eyed and still looking up at him and not letting go.
< Well, you heard the gun shot right well I promise you I would never kill someone including myself so I shot at the back wall instead and you were going the other direction but the people who were going to kill me were behind that wall and it caught there leg so they couldn't get me. I ran in a different direction with your brother and your mom didn't want to see me die  from cancer but she knew I wasn't going to kill myself and I had to take your brother your real one to the adoption centre so he wouldn't be left all alone because your mother could only take care of one of you and she didn't choose she grabbed the first person she could take and that was you. I didn't die from cancer because I went back to the hospital and they said it was a big mistake they messed up my info with someone else's cancer and they gave me money for there mistake about 4000$ so we flew a plane and I got to keep your brother and I found a job as a lawyer around here I went to University for that and I have a degree so we settled down here. The reason you didn't know about your brother is because he spent 4 years in the hospital because he was very sick but he pulled through it and we only had him for a week so you only had 1 memory and you wouldn't recognize him because his much older now. I'm so sorry we didn't come looking for you guys I was waiting till I saved up more money. Oh and half brother I'll explain another time k. >
He says. Why didn't my mom tell me about having a brother did she think he died or something I look over to her and she looks furious probably because of the half brother thing which might mean he found some one else. I think my mom knew about the hole I didn't kill myself thing because he talked to her right before that's probably what they were talking about.
I want to get out of here but all I manage to do is get to the door before Ethan blocks me. How come we don't have the same last name?
< to think I had a crush on you my sister gross! >
He says and it sorta lightens the mood. I go sit down on the couch and I wonder how Ethan feels he was going to be adopted and his mom never picked him I feel a sad ache in my head for him. Well, there goes my first crush.
That's why he was upset . How did my dad know it was me maybe my name probably never mind. I fall asleep with all this information it's to exhausting, I fall asleep at there house.

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