Jeff The Killers Blade

chapter 12

I wiped my mouth in disgust and rolled over, ny arms bare to the cold bathroom tiles. It had been a week since me and Jeff's hug. I hadn't seen him since. I've just been locked up in my house, my skin hasn't seen the sun in days. I hadn't seen anyone since then, so why was i throwing up from the flu? I just had the need to throw up as soon as i woke up. Oh no......

Am i pregnant?! I pulled my hair in fustration. NO! This can't, can't, can't be happening to me! I'm only 17! I can't be a teen mum! Okay. I need to calm down! Its probably nothing. Just to be sure, I might go pick up a pregnancy test this afternoon. Oh who am i kidding? I can't wait 'till then! I rush downstairs, quickly putting my hair in a messy ponytail. I some money just on the counter and began to walk to the store.

I sighed, i must be so pale. I don't mind though, i like pale skin.

Before i knew it, an IGA shop was infront of me. I took a deep breath and head inside. Why am i so scared? Because I may be pregnant, thats why......

What if I am?! I could NEVER get an abortion. I don't wanna give my baby to a complete stranger either. But having a baby is so expensive! Plus I want my child to have a baby. For the first time ever i really hope I fail a test.

I entered the 'womany' kinda section and looked around, i didn't want anyone seeing me whether i knew them or not. I grabbed a random one and ran to the next isle. Damn my heart is beating so fast. I read the back, and realised this was a bit....Dodgy? Or just not too good i should say. Great i have to go back!

I head back and stuffed the old one back in, quickly scanning the different ones. Finally I found one that looked pretty reliable. All pregnancy tests are the same why do i need a specific kinda one? I dunno.....

I head to the checkout, head down. The girl said hello and asked how i was. I just muttered fine.

"Okay so just this one pregnency test?" She beamed. I felt my cheeks warm up, yet i couldn't help but smile. "Y-yes thats all...." I reply.

"Okay, thats $14.00 please." She smiled, I handed her the $20 dollar note and she gave me my change. "Oh and congratulations if the results come back as positive!" She said, politely. "Haha, ummm, thankyou." I smiled back. Congratulations my ass.....

I run out and attempting to stuff the test in my pocket, yet failing miserably. I rush home befor anyone see's me. Wow, that was horrible! Ugh!

I carefully place the pregnancy test on the counter, as if going to break any second. I take a shakey hand and begin to tear the packaging, just slightly. I'm so nervous....Just as i'm about to tear it open a bit more, a knock on the door scares the shit outta me. I groan in frustration. I jog to the door and open it, not knowing whose there yet. "What?!" I bark.

I'm pissed because I was just about to have my test.....I look up to see....ugh why me?!

"Oh! Ummm sorry......is this a bad time?" Terrance asks.

"Oh, aaahhhh sorry and umm no it's, uuhhh, it's not." I say.

"Well thats good," he smiles. "I saw you running from the store. I kept calling your name, but you wouldn't answer. I got worried and you kinda led me here."

"I didn't hear you and I-I'm perfectly fine as you can see! Haha...." I laugh nervously, still shaking.

He looks at me strangely before asking, "May I come in?"

I nod and step back, allowing him access. He steps and looks around a bit. "Nice place." He smiles.

"Thanks...." I mumble. Will he just fucking leave already?!

He walks around a bit and heads towards the kitchen. My eyes widen. Oh my god he's probably seen the test! I gasp and run in, to see him with the test in his hand inspecting it. My stomach churns....I'm gonna be sick. Litterelly! I run to the bathroom and empty out my what i thought was already empty stomach into the toilet. Ew. I flush it and walk out.

I feel so tired all of a sudden. Well i better go back....

I hesitantly walk back and into the kitchen. Terrance is just on a chair glancing at the pregnancy test. "Your pregnent?" He asks. His sudden words shock me. I look at the floor, thinking of an excuse. "My s-sister is possibly p-prengnant, it's hers. " I studder. Oh wow, how believable!

"You don't have a sister!" He barks. I jump, not expecting him to be so mean. "Who's the father?" He asks. What do i do?!

I shouldn't lie....he'll most likely realise i am anyway, might as well give it to him straight. "I don't know...." I say, not able to look at him in the eye. "Oh! So the second you walk out of the asylum, you be a slut and fuck every boy you see!?" He demands.

I am....shocked? Appauled? I dunno, I'm just so.....how dare he?! A sudden anger washed over me. My parents called me a slut....every....day!

"I'm not a fucking slut!" I scream back. He seens just ataken back as me by my words. He snaps back into the argument though.

"Oh so you just went to a night club, fucked a random guy, without protection, don't even know his name and now your pregnant and your just as pure as a dove arent you?! How many guys HAVE you fucked?! 20?!" He retorted.

My bottom lip trembles, "Two...." My voice cracks. He just laughs. "Yeah in the past week!"

"In my life!" I say, balling my hands into fists.

"Bullshit! I wouldn't be surprised if you raped them with your ugly face!" He screamed. That snapped me......

I just dragged him to the door, all the while he keeps yelling profanities at me. I shove him out the door. Before I shut it I snarl to him. "I have only had....THAT....twice in my life. When i was 10 and just a week an a bit ago."

"Who?! Who did you fuck?! And 10?! Oh god!" He yells, disgusted.

I took a deep breathe in, shakily. "When I was then my dad raped me a countless amount of times. Last week, i was raped AGAIN by some guy in an alley-way and now I may be pregnent you bastard!" And with that; i slammed and locked the door.

I ran to the kitchen, hearing slamming and my name being called. He must feel terrible...good. I grabbed the test and ran upstairs.

"Time to found out if I'm pregnent!" I whispered to myself.

I take the test, waiting for result. What seems like hours, the results come back. I read the result, staring at it for minutes. I can't believe this.... 5 seconds later i fall down in tears. I scream out loud. "WHY ME?!"