Why am I doing this? Why does life hurt but at the same time strangely feel amazing? I need to be careful of my surroundings...in a mental way,that means that everything I think of doesn't have to blurt out. I saw a price of my past today,it was how I used to be before this terrible mental state that I'm currently undergoing. I used to be plain,quiet,and smart,everybody liked me because of that. I saw a girl today that I think likes me...pretty weird because last time I had a girlfriend was literally kindergarten. It's sad,don't feel bad for me please don't I don't need any remorse. I lost that girl because I was cheated on...by a close friend,it hurt...the pain!!! I didn't like girls for three months,its not gay I just didn't talk to girls. When I saw that girl today we talked,she stared at me,and she applauded me. I felt like my heart was sewed back together. It was amazing because she didn't talk to anybody else but me,mind you were at a party(Birthday). She ignored everyone else except me,I talked to her for a while then she stared at me and smiled...for a while. I need to care for myself mentally and physically. "Sensier you should get a dairy"no I should get another hobby. I love reading,you think I don't but I really love reading...after all I'm linguistic.
