It always seems that someone I like, or someone that likes me, always aren't my type. I'm pretty sure that one I find someone who likes me for me, I will be happy. I guess I am just picky. I know I shouldn't be that way, but that's how I was raised. I see everyone else having successful relationships without being picky, so maybe I should just follow them. I should be careless and just go for it. It seems like they all do, and it ends up working.
I feel that the people I have crushes on know before I even do. It feels like they purposely ignore me while I have a crush on them. When I stop really caring about them, it seems like they pop back in. This has happened so many times, that now I don't really focus on relationships. I try to stick with my friends, and try to forget about everything.
Friends don't always help. I know I can talk to one of them about anything, but sometimes I don't want. It's not about stress, it just about how often they have time to listen. It seems that everyone is hurrying to other people to spend time with them. No one ever really races to me to spend time with me.
