I have always been an outgoing person. I used to be able to talk to complete strangers for hours on end. Something changed my first day in 7th grade. It was so hard to talk to anyone. It was like my tongue was tied. I am still trying to get over this. It's hard to get over this, because I feel like i can't talk to anyone.
This has affected me in many ways. I can't talk to new people very well. It always comes out as weird gibberish that everyone can't understand. They always think I'm weird, and that no one should talk to me. Since it seems like everyone knows everyone in my school, everyone knows everything. Then that affects how I can talk to girls I like. I always go for people I don't know that I think are pretty. They usually know me, but not in a good way. I've tried asking plenty of girls out this year without anyone else knowing. They either say that they can't or that they have a boyfriend. It seems like every girl in my school is dating someone.
I know I'm trying to find the perfect one. I know I should get to know the girl I like, because that is the best way to fall in love with someone. I know there are plenty of people out there that would like to get to know be, but they have the same problem as me. Everyone has said shit about them, and they are afraid I might know. I'm pretty sure it won't be like this in other schools. It's just because we live in a very judgmental city. Everyone drives Mercedes or other big fancy cars. That's why I want to move away from here sometimes. I guess I'll just have to wait.
