You Saved Me: An Omeeka Story

Chapter 5

Meek POV
The gun made a popping noise because it wasn't loaded. I ran to her and snatched the gun and threw it on the ground and hugged her tight.
"Meek I'm sorry! I didn't know what I was thinking!" She cried in my arms and my mom had tears in her eyes and she rubbed her back.
"Don't ever scare me like that again. You hear me? Don't ever think about taking your own life. I love you so much." I said and Nicki cried and I picked her up.
"I love you too Meek." She said and my mom left the room. I took Nicki to bed and she laid on my chest.
"Nicki, I want to help you. I'm taking you back to therapy." I said and she stared ahead.
"You think I'm crazy." She said emotionless.
"No, I don't I just think you uh, need help expressing-"
"No just say it you think I'm crazy!" She said and I felt so bad for her she needs a lot of help because she's so broken.
"Baby... Clam down please. You just need help to stop thinking the way you do. You have some really bad thoughts that need to go." I said and she cried running to the bathroom. I followed her. She had a razor in her hand.
"Nicki stop and put that down." I said and she cut her wrist open. I went to grab it but she pulled it away and did a angry laugh as tears fell from her face.
"I will show you the crazy in me Meek! Why do you always lie to me just tell me the truth on what you think about me!" She yelled
"Nicki give me the razor!" I said and she cut again. The scars she made looked kinda deep. I was looking in her eyes and a tear escaped from mine. She must be something special because I never cry.
"Your going to hit a vein. Nicki please give me the razor. You need to stop hurting yourself. Your LOVED and cared about." I said and snatched the razor from her cutting my thumb in the process.
"Ouch man!" I said and a look of sorrow was on Nicki's face. She slid down on the wall with her hands covering her face.
"I'm sorry baby. I didn't-" She tried and I grabbed her and hugged her.
"Shhhhh. Baby don't cry, I hate seeing you in pain. Now go ask my mom to clean you up because I don't know where the first aid kit is." I said and she nodded going to my mom.
Nicki POV
I went to Kathy. I peeked in her room and she was silently crying.
"Kathy? Can you help me clean my scars?" I asked and she quickly wiped her tears. Then her eyes went to my wrist.
"Nicki, what did you do?" She asked and I looked at my cuts and they were running with blood.
"I just got upset and cut myself. I'm sorry I'll go clean up by myself where's the first aid kit?" I said and she stopped me.
"No it's okay come with me." She said and I followed her. She took me in the bathroom and put the toilet seat down and made me sit down. She grabbed her first aid kit and started cleaning my cuts.
"Why do you do this to yourself? You're a beautiful young girl." She said and I cleared my throat. I didn't answer her question.
"You don't have to answer it. Sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable." She said and I nodded and she wrapped my wrist in gauze.
"Don't ever hurt yourself again." Kathy said and I nodded and she gave me a hug and kissed my forehead.
"I love you sweetheart. Now get some sleep." She said and I went to our room. He was asleep. I kissed him quickly so he wouldn't wake up.
"I'm sorry. I love you baby." I whispered and with that I went to sleep
•••
I woke up a little late and went downstairs. Everyone was at the table eating.
"Good morning mommy!" Papi said and I forced a smile.
"Good morning baby." I said and he went back to eating. I looked at Meek and smiled at him but he turned his head.
"Good morning Meek." I said and went to touch his shoulder but he shrugged it off.
"Meek! Don't treat her like that." Kathy said and Meek got up and walked right passed me to our room. I stood there and tears filled my eyes.
"Mommy are you okay? Is daddy mad at you?" Papi asked and I glanced at Kathy then looked at Papi.
"Daddy's just a little upset. He's not mad at me." I lied. I ran to our room and hugged Meek from his side.
"I'm sorry Meek. I'll go to therapy, I won't cut anymore and I'll try to get help. Please talk to me please." I said and cried on him. He picked me up and swayed back and forth with me.
"Nah I'm sorry. It's not your fault. I shouldn't have treated you like that. It's just that you don't wanna listen to me, then when I decide to go to therapy you don't want to." He said and I held him tighter.
"I shouldn't have done that... You try really hard to help me but I don't take it. I'm sorry baby." I said and he nodded.
"I could tell I scared you a little bit talking about our future with children." He said and I kissed him passionately.
"I want to carry your children. I just have to be married or engaged first." I said and he nodded.
"I'll make sure that happens." He said and I smiled as he slowly put me down.
"Why do you care so much about me? I'm not used to having people care about me this much." I said and he kissed me again.
"We all care about you because we love you." He said and it made me feel good.
"Can we try to get a therapy session today?" I asked and he nodded.
"I'll call her now." Meek said and we both got dressed.
•••
"I'm glad to see you back Nicki." Dr. Sherry said and Meek and I sat on the couch.
"So Nicki. I heard you attempted suicide." She said and I nodded slowly and Meek rubbed the back of my hand.
"What were your thoughts in that moment of holding the gun to your head?" She asked and I let tears run down my face.
"I couldn't live suffering anymore. So I just wanted to take my life because it's not like anyone else would care." She nodded and wrote down on her note pad.
"Im very sure there's people who care about you. What else happened that made you want to do that." She asked and I cried.
"Um, Meek's dad was sitting at the table while I was about to get a bottle of water and he started looking at me. Then he touched me forcing me to take my clothes off by threatening to cut me with his knifes. Then he wanted me to give him oral but Kathy, Meek's mother unlocked the door and made him leave." You could see all the anger in Meek's face when I said that.
"Did he hurt you?" She asked and glanced at Meek.
"Y-yes." I said and Meek rubbed my back and started tapping his foot really fast.
"Meek I see you have some anger built up. What made you upset?" She asked clearly knowing why.
"He hurt Nicki. Then was touching all on her and shit and made her almost have sex with him, I'm disgusted. Nicki is my everything, my mom, sister, my son, my friends, and Nicki all I got. If I lost Nicki that night... Who knows what I would've done to myself." Meek said and I sat closer to him. I cried on his shoulder and he rubbed my back.
"How do you feel Nicki? Why are you crying?" Dr.Sherry asked.
"Because I wish I could say I'm sorry 1,000 times because I feel so bad and stupid for scaring Meek like that." I said still crying and Dr.Sherry looked at her watch.
"I think all you guys need, as a couple is to communicate better to understand each other more. What I think would help is talking to each other about your past. I know it may seem silly but play 21 questions with each other you will understand each other more." She said and we nodded and gathered our things leaving.
"Thank you for your time." Meek said shutting the door.
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Do you think Nicki is going to open up to Meek?
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