°twisted°

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i've lost my blades and i don't know how i can withhold the pain, if i don't have them by me, every second of the day

somebody has misplaced my pills, how am i ever going to look you in the eye without a new cap to try?

i haven't eaten in days, it seems i've completely lost my appetite, darling please don't tell me i'm fat, i can't stand to see you look at me like that

there aren't any cigarettes left for me to inhale, just like your kisses that turn my lungs into a jail that only captures a pair of salty air, maybe it's water, oh thank god, i've been waiting to drown ever since you decided you withheld all the power

the drugs aren't working anymore, i have to see you do all your evil deeds, with my own eyes and i don't like the surprise you provide at the end of each and every night

maybe you should try something else for a change, you know what, alcohol seems like a great exchange, i haven't gotten drunk in months, hold my hand, and watch me plummet, i promise you i will soon be done with this