OMG WE'RE NOW AT THE LAST CHAPTER OMF HOW EVEN--
Anyway, you may play the song now if you want to..um cry? *hides in corner*
Sehun POV
Drops of tear fell onto my cheeks, slowly flowing along my face, and fell down onto the pillow.
My heart was aching badly, I was so close to breaking down.
I was watching her sleep, before leaving to China tomorrow morning. It hurts me so much, to think that I won't be seeing her again in a few years.
She looked so angelic sleeping beside me, I didn't know if I'll have the chance to see this view again, in the future.
I could already imagine how it's like for her to only realize that I already left once she wakes up tomorrow, and I already felt guilty for that.
This is why I'm scared to love anyone. I'm scared to leave them. I'm scared to see them cry. I'm just afraid to see them break.
I'm in the urge of wanting to wake her up and tell her how much I love her. How much I don't want to leave her. How much I'm going to miss her.
I'll just never get tired of saying these things to her, because she means the world to me. She's also the one that taught me how to love again.
I hate to love someone. I hate that I kept losing. I hate that I didn't do anything to fight for our relationship.
I sighed, caressing her cheek with my thumb. She smiled softly in her sleep.
I placed my arms around her waist, hugging her tight as I placed a soft peck on her forehead. "I'm sorry."
Yeo Jin POV
I took one last glance at the house which has kept so much memories of us.
Me and Sehun, to be specific.
It's been a week, and being trapped in this house won't be able to help in healing me. Everywhere I go in the house, images of Sehun and I would always appear. I kept remembering all the times we spent together.
I'm trying my best to forget him. So, I'm leaving this place.
This pain left a really deep scar in my heart, which I don't even know if there would be anyone who could heal it.
Is there even anyone that could replace him, though?
Everyone says that love hurts.
But that's not true.
Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.
Now I know, love is the only thing in this world that doesn't hurt.
I was scared to open up to anyone before. Then, he came along. He taught me how to love. How to appreciate. How to cherish. And I'm thankful for that.
But now, now that he left me, would I be able to love somebody again? How long would it take for me to forget him?
I'll just try to live my life, as if I've never met him before. As if it was all only just a dream. As if I've woken up from my very deep slumber, only to realize that it was all a dream, and now I have to get up and get ready for the day.
I think this is already a dream. He's an idol, I'm a normal girl. How is that possible in the first place, anyway?
I shook my head and chuckled to myself, touching the pendant of my necklace. His necklace, actually. Gripping tight onto my luggage, I turned my heels and walked away from the house, hailing a cab.
I'll miss all the times I spent here in Seoul, as I'll be staying in my parents' house in Busan for now since it was winter break anyway. I also have to prepare myself for campus.
I received a mail yesterday, saying that I got accepted to Seoul Arts. I was overwhelmed with joy, but my grin faded when the thought led to him.
He promised that we would study together. He promised me happily ever after, he promised me love.
But I know everything happens for a reason, so I'm not going to be mad about it. Although it hurts me so bad. Haha.
I'm already excited for next year, and I'm expecting a fresh new start once I'll be a campus student. I want to start a new life. Meet new people. Make new friends. And forget him, hopefully.
Still, I thank you, Oh Sehun.
You pained me, but you're also the cure to it.
You gave a big impact in my life.
You explored a part of my heart that I didn't even know existed.
You made me see a brand new world.
You taught me what real love felt like.
And now that you became a memory,
You..
are the sweetest thing that had ever happened in my life.
-The End-
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We reached the end T-T CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?
I'm sorry if the ending didn't reach your expectation, I've planned it this way since the start.
Oh god, I'll miss writing this story. It felt like it was only yesterday when I wrote the first chapter!
I've got a couple of things to say in the next chapter before you archive this story from your library so don't. do. it. yet.
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