What if it wasn't a love story

Chapter fourteen - Matthew's POV

I didn't go to school today because I didn't feel like it . I didn't feel like seeing Kierra . I told mom that I was sick and fortunatly she didn't even ask for more explanations.

I feel humiliated. I thought that she liked me , or that at least she was attracted to me . But turns out she doesn't . Maybe God doesn't want anything good to happen to me .

I watch TV during the whole day . But movie after movie , I get tired and decide to take a nap .
I lay on my bed and all I'm able to do is to think about Kierra . What is she doing right now ? Is she thinking about me ? Is she wondering why I didn't show up to school ?

I need to take her off my mind so I finally turn off the lights and close my eyes.

Two hours later , I wake up , open the drawer and pick my poetries notebook . I need to breath out my emotions because I feel so heavy .

" When the lights go down

My mind is invaded by you

I really thought I was found

But now I have nowhere to go to

I lost my mind and I lost my soul

And can I say I lost you

Now I feel like a fool

For wanting to fall for you

You've stolen my heart

But you didn't give me yours back

Your presence was like art

Except that it didn't last ."

And for the first time , even if I wrote down what I feel , I don't feel any better . I actually feel worse , because I've put all of the reality in evidence in front of my eyes , and I have no way to escape from it anymore .

At four , when school is probably over , I call Jason.

" Hey"

" Hey what's up ? Why didn't you come to school today? Were you sick ?" He asks .

" No , I'll tell you later . Can we meet at five at the park?"

" Sure ."

"Don't be late this time ." I say

"I never was." He laughs " see you."

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As planned , I walk to the park at five and wait for Jason on a bench . And what's surprising is that he arrives five minutes later .

" Hey Matt , how are you doing? " He says as he  sits next to me .

" I'm okay . Well I'm not actually feeling that great ."

" Spit it out man. What's going on?"

" Remember the girl I told you about? " I ask.

" Sure .  She's the only one you've ever told me about." He says sarcastically.

" Well , she doesn't love me back ."

" Wait a second . You said love me back . Do you love her already?"

" Well , I think I do ."

" Maybe it's too early for her to talk about love . You've just met few weeks ago . "

" Jason , she doesn't even like me ."

" How can you know that?"

" I tried to kiss her but she ..."

Jason's phone ring . He interrupts me and says :

" Hold on a second , I have to answer that."

A few moment later , he hung up and his smile is larger than his face .

" Sorry man , it was Kierra."

Kierra??! There's no way.

" What?? Who's Kierra?" I ask him without hiding my confusion.

" My girlfriend . Sorry I forgot that I didn't mention her name earlier."

He got to be kidding me . Maybe it's another Kierra .

" What's her full name?" I ask him .

" Kierra Mia Cooper."

As soon as he pronounces her middle name , my fist meets his face , and I don't even wait for him to fight back because I can't look at him anyway . He's a freaking bastard .

As I run away , I scream to him " Don't even try to call me Jason , I'm blocking your number . And if you try to hurt Kierra , i'll not only break your face, I'll ruin your life too."

Jason has been dating Kierra . JASON , my supposedly best friend has been dating Kierra : And I didn't notice a thing . He met her at the gym . He took her to the Lake Tahoe on Saturday .  I didn't date her when we went to the pizzeria and I didn't date her when I went to her house on Sunday. Or was she dating both of Jason and I?

I'm walk faster so I reach home in less than ten minutes . Mom is sitting in the TV room with Georges . They are cuddling so I just head to my room . I don't feel like writing and I don't feel like sleeping either .

I turn on my laptop and log in to facebook perhaps it will distract me a bit . I haven't log in to it for more than two years now . When the page open , I have four messages and almost twenty notifications . Almost all of the notifications are games invitations or birthday wishes for my fifteenth and sixteenth birthdays . I don't bother read them and view my messages instead . Max , Melissa , Kaya and ...Unknown?

It's most probably a scam so I open Max , Melissa and Kaya's messages first . They are old friends so their messages are really senseless and they no longer matter . I press on the unknown message which was sent a year ago .

" Dear Matthew ,
I know I haven't given you any news , and maybe your mom hasn't shown you my letters yet , but I needed you to know that I've been thinking about you since the day I stopped visisting you ...."

This has to be a bad joke .  He visited me?

" I have reasons . I really do . And I know that no matter how serious my reasons are , they will never be a good enough excuse for what I did . I need to meet you soon , as soon as possible,  to give you all of the necessary explanations and to hopefully get to know you . If you don't want to meet me , I need you to ask your mother to give you those explanations . I really want you to know about everything .

I know that being sorry won't be enough
                                  Your dad ,
                                   Enzo "

No . This isn't happening . I just need all of this to be a bad joke .