Begin Again

Chapter Fourteen

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Begin Again- Chapter Fourteen-

Elena's P.O.V.

He doesn't stop me from going after her, he just lets me go, watching my hand catch the door that's just slammed in our faces.

I can feel his eyes on me as I step out into our driveway, hearing the front door close and I can picture Stefan leaning against it, giving me three things I need right now- time, space and an opportunity to yell at her, let it all out in the open, for once.

"Why? It's a simple question, mom. Why'd you try to take it all away from me! I was happy, we were happy. We were finally starting to be okay. After so many damn years, we were finally getting back to each other. You know how much I love him, how much Stefan means to me and you went after him! The one person in this screwed up world who's loved me even with all of the mistakes I've made, with all of my flaws. I love him, Miranda and you had no right to hurt me by using my husband like that!" I scream at her, tightening my grip around myself, Stefan's dark blue shirt clinging to my body as my feet shift in place and the short's I'm wearing cause small shivers down my bare legs from the breeze against my skin.

"Elena, you know my thoughts on him and you just made it very clear to me. I should have known that you'd always choose him, after all he is your best friend. Isn't he? It was never Matt, it was never me or anyone else who cared for you as much as Stefan did..As much as he does." She states, looking down at the car keys in her hand and leaning against her black Honda pilot.

"If you knew. Then, why..why did you try to tear me away from him. I lost him once, Miranda and I never want to go through that pain again...Do you understand that? That pain I felt of knowing that my kids would never get to have their dad there for them. Until the day he came back to me. He came back for me, he came back for them too. But, Stefan came back for me..Just like I knew he always would. So, why can't you understand that I love him, that he's the one for me." I tell her, hearing a nervous laugh escape past her lips as I ignore it and continue to speak.

"I never picked you over Stefan. You did that all on your own the day you came to the my house, a few months after Olivia and Sam started crawling, a few months after I thought he was dead. You just showed up to pay your respects. You saw how much I was hurting, how devastated I was thinking that Stefan wasn't alive. Why couldn't you have just been there for me, like a real parent would have been! We could have made amends then. Instead, you told me that maybe over time, I'd move on and one day, Stefan would be a distant memory. Instead of being there for me like a mother should have been. You insulted me during my grief!"

" You should know more than anyone what it feels like to be alone, to feel like your whole world is caving in on you and you can't breathe anymore. You should-" I start to say, finishing off my rant as she cuts me off mid thought, raising her hand up in the air and looking over at me.

"I do know, what that feels like. Your dad and I were just like you and Stefan. Madly in love from the start. But, losing him to the cancer, it changed me. I watched the man that I loved die right in front of my eyes and there was nothing I could do about it. Look, I know that I'm not your favorite person in the world and that you hate me. But, Elena. I'll admit, when I heard the news of Stefan being found again and that he came home to you. I was jealous because you got to live the life that I never did...You got the chance to pick up the pieces from your heart breaking over him and you both got to move on. What I did to you was wrong..Sending in Rebekah and convincing her that I could pay her off if she slept with Stefan just to ruin your relationship and to have him not break your heart again. I guess I thought that If I pushed you both apart that you would never be hurt by him again...Like you were the first time. I guess, I just didn't want you to end up like me. Alone and bitter for never getting what you always wanted, a life with the one person that you had always loved. I loved your father, Elena. I did and I know I've made my fair share of mistakes. But..." Her voice trails off, an ashamed look on her face as I scoff at her words.