Emotional Transitions

Confusion

A  break from the unresolved problems becoming daily stressors of life.

The fire burned away that pain effectively, albeit a temporary absolution.

The body says what the mind doesn't know.

The heart feels what the brain doesn't want to relive. 

The pain of loss, of trust broken, of effort given

The mind convincing itself nothing is wrong.

This is why thoughts are scattered and in unrelenting turmoil.

The mind and body are at war.

Denial versus the not so absolute truth.

Thoughts running through Mental passageways like scurrying mice in a frenzy.

Dark deep thoughts consuming all but the minimum amount of light.

Pessimism ruining the day with the infinite possibilities and conclusions.

Conclusions created without positive reasoning leading to sadness

Emotions a torrent of delusional thoughts

Confusion settling for the worst possible outcome

Confusion everlasting transforming slowly

Morphing into an abyss of emptiness

The emptiness feels so heavy and cold.

The weight like the world on weak shoulders

The coldness spreading through

The veins are first to freeze

Making pain obvious and turning joy into shadow

The lungs are next to go

Constricting tight making breath shallow and painfully difficult

Pain obviously dull and inescapable

the brain slowing to a undeniable, amnesiac sorrow

Forgetting all existent joy

Once happy memories tainted

Longing for even the slightest elation

Receiving only a desolate plane of cold overbearing sadness

Reality a distant memory

Illusion and deception wreak havoc

So sleep was a comforting, wishingly eternal embrace

Wishes could not be granted as all things must end

So on went the dreary days

On went the icy dark fingers making playdoh of heart and mind

Till even sleep was disturbed

Interrupted by dreams so harsh, startling, and evil

Only to awaken to dreams come true

Dreams become eerily prophetic

Socialization always a terrifying endeavor

Now one of the few times the brain comes to rest

But confusion still constant

With ideas of absolution or understanding a seemingly unattainable goal.

Suddenly a musical euphoria erupts

Changing everything

The cold inescapable darkness of the mind momentarily forgotten

The mind opens the proverbial curtains letting the light back inside

The light might fade and maybe even disappear

But it will always return-hope is restored...