Give Me A Sign, I Want To Believe

Am I Falling In Love Again?

I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. I snuck out of bed and did my business. When I came back Ally was awake and shaking like crazy.

“Ally are you okay?”

“Daddy… hit me.” She held her stomach and rocked back and forth. I held her and cooed soothing words into her ear to calm her down. When she was calm enough I sang Saviour to help her fall asleep. She looked up at me and smiled.

“That was beautiful.” She whispered as I finished off Saviour.

“Thanks. Andy wrote it for the fans. It also helps people sleep and relax so I thought I’d give it a shot.”

“Well I’m certainly relaxed now. Jake, thank you for taking me in and doing all of this for me, especially after a hard break up. It means a lot.”

“You’re welcome Allyson. I’m glad I’ve made you happy. I’m sure that if I didn’t break up with Ella, I’d still take you in. You have so much ahead of you and I’d hate for you to slip up and cause everything to slip away.”

Wow, I really do care about her and like her. Well I’m fucked. I’m not sure she even likes me. What if she thinks of me as her brother or something? What the fuck is going on with me? I just broke up with Ella and now I’m falling in love with someone else. Oh god. What if I’m thinking this because of the break up? That’s got to be it. I mean I just met her. How can I fall in love with someone if I’ve just met them. I need time to think this out.

Ally fell asleep in my arms, so I put her to bed. I looked at the time and saw it was 3 am. I needed to call Jinxx and talk to him because I’m fucked right now. I don’t know if I’m really in love or I’m rebounding her. I grabbed my phone and went into the living room and called Jinxx.”

“Hello?” Jinxx answered groggily.

“Jinxx, I need to talk to you. It’s about Allyson.”

“What’s wrong?”

“I think… I think I’m in love with her.”

“You just met her though. Are you sure this isn’t because of the break up?”

“I don’t know. It doesn’t feel like it. I- I don’t know what to do.”

“Look, when did you start feeling like this? Like the first time.”

“The morning we went to the studio. She looked cute when she woke up and I tried convincing myself I was only thinking this because of the break up. And then she woke up from a nightmare so I sand Saviour for her and then Ally thanked me for taking her in and just being really kind to her. I told her I was glad I made her happy and even if Ella and I didn’t break up I still would’ve taken her in. I told her she has so much ahead of herself and I’d hate for her to slip up and cause everything to slip away.”

“Jake, I don’t know what to tell you. It doesn’t sound like you’re hurting over Ella anymore. I think you’re starting to love Ally. Just give it time though. Wait a few months and if you still feel the same or have stronger feelings then you really love her. I’ll talk to Sammi and see if she can talk to Ally and see what she thinks.”

“Jinxx you are a life saver. Thank you soo much.”

“It’s nothing. Next time don’t call me at 3 in the morning.”

“But you’re the smartest Jinxx at 3 am.” I joked.

“Whatever. Night Jake.”

“Night.” I hung up and went back to bed. Ally snuggled into my chest and smiled in her sleep. I think she feels safe with me. Maybe that’s why she didn’t get any nightmares when we slept the whole night together. I pulled the duvet over us and fell asleep.

*Skipping to Christmas Day* (a/n: Sorry about the skip. There’s not much to put in the days leading up to Christmas and I don’t want to bore anyone.)

“Jake wake up!!! IT’S CHRISTMAS!!!” Ally yelled as she pulled the duvet off of me.

“five more minutes.” I grumbled.

“No. The boys are going to be here any minute now GET UP!” I got up and went into the bathroom to brush my hair and teeth. Ally and the boys have become friends and Ally’s now best friends with Andy and CC. Ally has been eating better. She still eats half the plate but she’s slowly increasing her portions. It’s cute when she gets a full plate and realizes half way through, she can’t finish it. I told the guys about Ally coming on tour and they were all stoked for her to come with us.

I walked into the living room and saw the guys, Sammi, Juliet, Lauren and Ally sitting down on the couch waiting for me.

“Good Morning Mr. Farts A Lot.” Andy joked.

“Merry Christmas Mr. I Lose Everything.” I joked back. Everyone laughed as I picked Ally up off the couch, sat down, and put her on my lap.

“You could’ve asked me to move you know?”

“Yeah but I don’t want you to sit on the floor so you can sit on me. I don’t mind. I’ll mind if one of the guys sits on me.”

“PRESENT TIME!!!!” Sammi and CC yelled. Ally, Andy and CC all ran to the tree to grab their gifts. Then Juliet, Lauren and Sammi went. And finally, Jinxx, Ashley and I went. All the guys got Ally BVB merch except for CC. Andy also got her some notebooks to doodle and write in. CC got Allyson a drum kit so she can play here. I have a spare room so I’m going to let her use that room as her music room.

I got her some MCR, PTV, Bruno Mars, Guns N’ Roses and BVB albums and an IPod with music downloaded. She opened my gift first and jumped me with a hug.

“Jake I love it so much. Thank you!” I laughed and said you’re welcome. She opened CC’s gift next.

“HOLY SHIT CC THIS IS FUCKING AWESOME!” CC hugged her and messed her hair up.

She opened the rest of her gifts and thanked everyone. Next up was Andy. Juliet and Sammi got him Batman footie pajamas. The guys and I got Andy leather gloves, new cowboy boots, some batman and BVB snapback hats, more war paint and Seagram’s 7 whiskey. Lauren and Allyson got Ant a Batman microphone.

“You guys are awesome. Thanks for everything.” I went next. As a joke the guys got me 4 boxes of pizza. But as a serious gift they got me some more guitar stands and wall hooks and new converse. Ally got me a sushi shaped pillow, which was really funny. The girls got me a slow cooker because my old one broke. Yes I cook, deal with it. I like Cuban sandwiches.

“Thanks guys.” This went on until everyone’s gifts were opened. The girls go clothes and make up from us, so they were all happy. Ash got lots of alcohol and some clothes. CC got new shoes, clothes and an “Open At Your Own Risk.” Sign to put on his bunk, since he’s always naked when we open his bunk.

Jinxx got an inverted cross necklace, new combats, belts, and Sammi got Jinxx his signature guitar for him. We had lunch at my place and we all played Rock Band and Dead Island. Everyone except Allyson and I drank. We played Truth or Dare until about 3 am. The guys passed out on each other and the girls fell asleep on the couch. Ally and I went to my room to sleep.

“Best. Christmas. Ever.” Ally said as she plopped onto the bed. I laughed.

“Wait until tomorrow. Andy’s party will be ten times crazier.”

“Oh god.”

“That’s the guys for you.”

“Jake, thanks again for the albums and the ipod. Their awesome.”

“No problem. Now you’ll have something to listen to while we tour.”

“you’re amazing.” Ally yawned as she laid down next to me. She grabbed her stuffed shark, which was really funny and cute, and fell asleep. I did the same moments later.

Maybe I really do like her. Have I really gotten over Ella? Maybe I’m falling in love again.