Give Me A Sign, I Want To Believe

What Have I Done?

I woke up and noticed Ally was curled up and her head was on my chest instead of my lap. She was smiling in her sleep which was good. Trixy slept on my lap, so I decided to take a photo and put it on instagram.

@JakePittsBVB: Sleep over with the great @AllyMoore Great way to spend my first night out of the hospital. With one of my best friends. Thank you Ally for being awesome as ever. Thanks for the support Army. I love you very much.

I put my phone down and saw Trixy was awake and giving me sad eyes. I smiled and played with her for a bit. Ally started to stir and mumbled to herself. I chuckled and ruffled her hair.

“good morning sunshine.”

“huh? Oh, morning. Wait. Jake, you need to be in bed for the rest of the week.” Ally got up and went into mother mode.

“Babe, relax. We fell asleep on the couch. This isn’t going to kill me.” She rolled her eyes and pecked my lips. She checked her phone and started typing. Then my phone buzzed. Ally replied to the photo.

AllyMoore: You’d think we’re too old for sleep overs, but we were wrong. You’re never too old for a sleep over.

“Nice save baby. Nice save.” I joked as I wheeled myself to our bedroom. I got into bed and Ally followed in suit.

“Please don’t leave me like that. I don’t know what would’ve happened if that went on any longer.” I looked at Ally’s face. Then I looked at her body. She looked too thin, I could clearly see her collar bone and her clothes were baggier than normal.

“Ally, when was the last time you ate?” She fell silent.

“Ally, when?” I got a bit louder.

“Allyson please tell me. I won’t get mad. I just want to know.” She shook her head and dropped her head.

“Ally, I love you and I want to help you. Please answer me.” A long silence followed.

“Allyson, just tell me when you last ate!” I yelled. Ally looked at me in shock, got up and left with tears streaming down her face.

What have I done?