Hold on til may

Chapter 4 here lyes the dead

Chapter 4-here lye's the dead

Ana's P.O.V.

After Spencer put me in the car, I looked out the window blankly and drifted to sleep.




I wake up and my head is pounding my make up was down my face from where i was crying and Spencer knows, not everything but he knows about my-.

"Ana, are you OK" Spencer says rubbing my shoulder gently.

"yea of course" I lie.

"Ana I'm not stupid don't lie to me" he says seriously.

I sigh.

"Where are we" I ask.

"You'll see" he says, then he opens the car door and leads us out side.

Putting a hand over my eyes, he leads me to wherever we are going.

"Spencer where are you taking me" I ask.

He groans in frustration.

After what felt like 5 more minutes of walking he takes his hand off my eyes.

In front of me a is a grave stone, it reads

Here lies Margret Reed
A wonderful wife and mother
1973-2011.

I turn quickly to Reed only to see tears streaming down his face.

"Spencer look at me" I say to him, at first he just looks at the stone.

"Spencer" I say.

He looks at me his eyes Red and puffy.

I open my arms out toward him and he quickly comes into my embrace.

"I miss her so much".

"I know Spencer, i know".

I hug him and it feels so right, maybe just maybe i could be friends with him.

or maybe even more.

What could take his mind off this? hmmmm oh i know now.

I take Spencer's face in my hands and look up at him, i don't know what drove me to do this but i kissed him...hard



He quickly kisses me back and puts his hands on my waist, i wrap my arms around his neck and we kiss harder, well i never thought i would be in a grave yard making out with Spencer Reed And actually enjoying it... wait what?

His lips seem to move with mine in a unique way i never thought was possible our bodies seemed to mold together, fitting perfectly together, OK so maybe i d id have a tiny crush on Spencer reed.

Oh God What am i getting myself into?



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After Spencer and I had out little make out session, he awkwardly had said

"We should get you home now".

Then we had walked back to his car in comfortable silence and right now i honestly cant think of anything better to do.

"Spencer" I say

'Yea" he replies.

I smirk.

"Maybe your not so bad after all" I say.

He chuckles and turns the radio on, love somebody blasts through the speakers and i sing along

" I really Wanna Love Somebody, I really wanna dance the night away i know were only half way there but you take me all the way take me all the way, take me all the way"

Spencer looks at me in shock.

"What" I ask him laughing.

" You have an amazing voice" He said.

I Laugh.

"Not as good as mine though" He says.

"Oh? Really Lets hear" I say turning off the radio.

"OK.... Beauty Queen of only 18 had some trouble with herself he was always there to help her she always belonged to someone else i drove for Miles and miles and wound up at your door I've had you so many times but somehow i wan more" He sings his voice was like an angels i didn't think someone could sing that well.

I star at him with my mouth agape.

He looks away from the road for a second and looks at me smiling,

"sing the next part" He says smiling.

"I don't mind spending everyday out on your corner in the pouring rain look for the girl with the broken smile ask her if she wants to stay a while" I sing as he chimes in and i let him finish the next line,

"And she will be loved, she will be loved".

By the end of the song we had pulled up at my house and oddly i was sad to leave.

"Bye Spencer" I say opening the car door and climbing out, but i quickly turn around when i hear his car door open and the shut behind me.

I turn and look at him and raise my eyebrows.

he sighs.

"I just want to sure you can get in alright" he says looking worried.

"Ill be fine" i say, knowing i will, neither of my parents cars are in the drive way.

"Yea well i want to walk you in anyway" he says.

I roll my eyes.

"Fine" I say.

WE walk inside my House and i turn to Spencer,

"There i made it in my house fine" I say sarcastically.

"Let me just walk you to your room" He says.

"If you think your getting laid, then your wrong" I say seriously.

"I'm not going to try and get laid lord you have mo faith in me" he says jokingly.

"Ok" I Say laughing.

We walk upstairs into my room and Spencer plops on my bed.

"ahhh how comfortable" He says laying back and closing his eyes.

"ha. ha. ha. very funny im going to take a shoer really quick" I say, then i grab some underwear and an over sized T-Shirt and walk down the hall.

Hopping into the shower i was my body, trying to get all the worries of this week to go away.

Finally I get done showering and go into my room, only to see spencer asleep onmy bed his mouth was open and all the worry lines on his facehad smoothe out his one hand was drapd over the side of the bed.

I smile, he looks so cute asleep.

I quickley take off my towel and threw on my underwear and T-shirt screw bras im going to sleep.

I go over to my bed and pull the covers up, getting under them i put my face in spencers chest and breathed in his smell, His arm Draped over me, causing me to smile.







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In the morning I wake up to find a empty bed, and i frown... i wish he didn't leave, whatever.

I get up and brush my hair the i open my bedroom door, only to smell food cooking.

I walk into the kitchen confused only to see Spencer singing to himself, cooking i smile, he can sing and cook dear god.

But hes still the school bad boy this could all just be a trap to make me fall.

"Morning" I say happily.

he turns around and smiles at me,

"Good morning beautiful" he says.

I feel the heat rise to my cheeks, and Spencer chuckles.

This is probably one of the best mornings i have ever had, that is until my drunken mother walks through the front door.

"Ana, who is this you filthy whore" my mom snarls at me.

"Mom hes just my friend" i say cautiously.

she comes up and punches me hard in the stomach and then pinches me in the face, i fall to the ground pathetically, but surprisingly don't feel her painstaking blows i open my eyes to see Spencer was holding her away from me.

"Go pack a bag, meet me outside" He yells.

i don't respond i just run up the stairs to my room grab a duffel bag and throw some clothes in there along with my toothbrush and other necessary things.

then i run back down stairs yell to Spencer

"Lets go",

and the ran out the door with him behind me we hopped into his car and drove away.

"Your mom is a crazy ass bitch" Spencer says once we are off my street.

i look at my hands, which where resting in my lap, why did she decide to do this to me, and why didn't Spencer leave, like....him, i shake my head of those unwanted thoughts and respond to Spencer,

"i know".

he shakes his head and we continue driving in silence for the next couple minutes.

"Where are we going" I ask?.

"To a hotel, and no i do not expect to get laid" He says.

I laugh,

"OK well maybe you will, if your lucky" I say and wink.

Finally we pull up to this beautiful hotel and walk in, i take around my surroundings the lobby was a huge indoor pond and plants all over then on the other half had a large table with chairs all over.

Spencer gets us a room and we go upstairs and open our room.

i plop down on the bed and look at Spencer,

"Well Reed, its been a long day".

He plops down next to me, and laughs a humourless laugh.

"Tell me about it".

I Laugh along with him, and then started crying the adrenaline of what just happen washing away from my body.

Spencer hugs me and doesn't say anything he just soothingly strokes my hair, but it still hurts too much i know what i have to do.

At 2:00am i got out of bed and crept into the bathroom, making sure Spencer was soundly sleeping, after triple checking he was i filled the bathtub up and went in my duffel bag grabbing my razor and popping the razor part out, i put on my IPod and played hold on til may.

I get into the bathtub and put the razor on my wrist, i start pressing down,

I cant do this anymore I'm tired of the pain I dont like acting as if everything is a pity party I swore i would make it through until i could move away but i just cant do it, every single morning i wake up in fear that one of my parents will be home, or both,

Then I go to school only to come home and find that my drunken mother is passed out on the couch, or worse awake and ready to beat me,

and then on the worst of days when my dad is home and he realizes the filthy prostitutes he does don't satisfy him, he comes home and rapes me, life is just not worth living anymore.

I feel the blood start dripping down my wrist, and tears start rushing down my face right before i was about to get far enough down that it would kill me Spencer ran into the bathroom and grabbed my wrist quickly pulling me out of the tub and wrapping a towel around my wrist, only then did he say something.

"What the hell were you thinking" He yells.

I Look down at my feet not answering as i feel the pressure of the towel on my wrist tighten.

"Answer me Annabelle" He says using my full name.

I Shutter knowing he was completely serious.

"There's no point in living anymore" I say sadly.

"Yes there is there always is OK, i thought the same thing when mom died and Claire got diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis but i never gave up and neither should you" He says seriously.

"Who's Claire" I ask trying to change the subject.

"Claire is my 3 year old sister, my mom died giving birth to her and she has cystic fibrosis, my dad is never home because he is either working or drinking, and i dint even remember the lat time he visited Claire, but never once did i ever think of killing myself" He said.

I just stare at him.

"Lets make a deal, you seem to like this song that's playing right now Hold on til may is it"? He says.

I nod My head yes.

"OK well then its September 20, if you can hold on until May 20, then i can prove to you that life is worth living if you don't think so then well, at least you held on until May" He says.

"Deal" He asks after a few minutes of hesitation.

"Deal" I say back firmly.

Spencer holds out his hand and i shake it.

"Now lets go to bed, and you can show me how to live with some crazy ass sex" I say Seductively.

"Really" Spencer asks excitedly.

"No" I say then i run into bed and lay down gladly welcoming the soft hotel pillows and blankets.