Hold on til may

Chapter 6- What is this?

Chapter 6- January 1, 2015

"Spencer what are we" i asked him quietly. We were sitting on my couch watching some scary movie we found on demand.

Spencer looked a little caught off guard by the question but looked down at me and smiled. Him and I have been acting like a couple since November..I wonder if he really wants to be one.

"What do you want to be Ana?" Spencer asked.

"Honestly? I dont know. I dont want to get hurt anymore then nessacary Spencer... I want to be something more then we are now I just dont want to be put in the position to get even more hurt" I reply honestly. What is this we have going on anyway?

"I will never hurt you Ana never" Spencer says looking me dead in the eye. I shouldnt believe it I dont want to believe it but I do.

I look at him. I dont know what to say back. I dont know what to do or feel or anything.

"Well ana with that said....Will you be my girlfriend?"

My whole heart just burst out of my chest I swear.

"Yes spencer i will"

The smile that lit up Spencers face after that was beautiful amd the crushing hug that followed it was just as great. I think im Happy i dont know if i want to die now or in May or ever. I know that i still have problems and things i need to fix about myself and honestly i probably need so much therapy but things are getting better they have to be getting better i cant take this constant hurting. Spencer looks down at me and smiles.

And then we kissed, we kissed like two kids that needed air flaunting our despriation through our kiss we needed love we needed and we found it, in ourselves and in each other we found it.. the impending question is will it last.

"ANA WHAT THE HELL" My fathers booming voice echos through the tiny living room, I pull away from spencer quickly and look up in fear.

"Dad?" i exclaim worridly jumping off the couch.

"What is going on here Ana, you know you cant have boys over when your mother and I arent here" He tries to calm his voice down but i know whats coming later.

"Dad you and mom are never fucking home anyway" I say raising my voicei im done with him and his shit.

Dad looks at me hard and daring, he wanted me to keep talking that will just fuel his rage for when spencer leaves. Im scared im absolutly petrified for when Spencer leaves.

"Did you just curse at me?" My fathers voice is more strained and you can see the rage in his eyes.

"Im sorry son but i think you going to have to go, Ana seems to be in a little but of trouble here"

Spencer looks at me worridly, contemplating whether or not he should leave, he knows what going to happen and his eyes tear up ever so slightly.

"Ana-"

"Just go Spencer" I say.

He looks at me sadly, and turns to my father with absolute hatred in his eyes.

"Sorry Sir, ill be on my way" Spencer says before leaving.

"Ana that was a naughty thing to do" My father says sadistically, smirking.

My eyes fill up with tears. This is terrible i cant do this i cant breathe. Im scared.

"I hate this dad" I spit out.

"I dont give a fuck what you think or what you feel im going to fucking kick your ass amd then some because if the way you acted today" My fathers voice raised loud, booming through the house.

"Get in your room" He days quietly. My heart sank and silently and dreadfully I trudged to my bedroom with him following behind unbuttoning his pants as he goes along. I change my mind maybe life isnt worth living.

"Dad please Dont" I beg him. This is terrible I just want to die someone kill me amd the wretched person in front of me.

My father strips down and makes me too... then he gets on top of me. Then the most saving thing happens I hear police sirens going down the street. My father thinks nothing of it knowing I had no time to call the police.

I hear the door bust open and them running towards me and then my father being ripped away from my naked body. They kick him and push him to the floor, handcuffing him.

"Honey why don't you go get dressed" One of the police officers tells me.

I grab clothes and run into the bathroom, getting dressed.

"Spencer thank you so much for saving me from that" I say out loud.

The strange thing is when I hear a womans voice, a sober womans voice

"Spencer didnt call them.... I did"

I look behind me and standing at the door was a beautiful, sober, better looking woman

"Mom?"