Hold on til may

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

"Mom" I repeat myself astounded. She's sober here and now this isn't possible none of this can be humanly possible my mother doesn't not drink every day all day she looks like she's been sober for her whole life I can't even begin to grasp where this is coming from my eyes fill with tears as I look up at my mother. The tears begin to fall slowly and then quickly she was there for once she was there she saved me. The tears begin the fall from my mom's face she wraps her arms around me and hugs me stroking my hair repeating herself.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I should've been there"

"mom what happened to you you're better you're not drunk you saved me from dad I thought that I was going to have to deal with that until I moved"

"I know honey I'm so sorry I started drinking when your dad started doing that to me then he stoped and I thought that maybe he was better until I found out he was doing it to you so I started drinking heavier and I hated myself for it every day finally I was out of money drunk on the sidewalk when I realized that you needed me and that I should be more of a mother and less of a drunk worthless mother so I went to rehab for a month got myself together got a job came home when I saw him doing it to you so I called the police and they came and saved you and I promise you I'm going to be a good mother from now on"

"What about dad is he going to jail forever oh my gosh mom I miss you so much you used to be so much better you were all I had to hold onto when I was younger, how can i forgive you for what you did, how can i trust your not going to go back".

That was one of the truest things I've ever said my life. how can I trust her?how can I believe that she's going to be sober? I can't and I don't know if I ever can. I want to give her a chance but I don't think that she's going to do good. I don't want to be disappointed again I'm done with being disappointed.

"please honey just give me a chance that's all I can ask for" My mother practically begs me.

I look at my mother for a long time quietly I watch and look over her,her green eyes shine was a little bit of hope her brown hair was straight down her sides looking elegant she was wearing a skirt and blouse was a nice jacket over top and heels she looks like she had her life together she looked like a successful Woman she looks like she had gone to college and she looked like she was making it somewhere. wait a second had she going to college? that doesn't matter right now that's a question for a different time how can I forgive her? can I even believe her? I stared at her for a long time thinking what do I do what do I say how can I forgive the lady that put me through so much pain and how can I call her mother?

"yeah mom I think I can" I say my stomach drops in my eyes water I hope I'm making the right choice.

Her eyes light up and huge smile erupts across her face and she jumps to hug me, but I wasnt ready for a hug i never recieved before in all my life by her, so i tensed up...and she fell back. Broken-heartedly and dejected she looked at me.

"I apoligize I should not have jumped on you like that" She almost whispers.

"Its okay..mom"

"Lets go to lunch, I got a job i have a little extra money this week, at lunch we can talk about everything. I smile.

"Sounds good"

I never saw her look so beautiful the way that she smiled at me I was happy for Once my dad's going to jail, my mom sober and spencer and i loved each other. I didnt think life could get any better in any possibility, i didnt think it could worse either....