All Of Me - BasicallyIDoMini

Struggling

Mini's POV - Two weeks later.

"Hello?"

"I know I said I would call you earlier but I fell asleep editing..." I said quietly.

"Mini, it's fine. I figured you would of fallen asleep. What time is it there?" he asks.

I look down to the bottom of the laptop and see it's four am. At least it isn't too late for him. I kind of want to see his face but asking him may seem stupid. I have so much editing I need to do since I took Brian and Nogla up on that road trip. I went and saw the both of them and we chilled for a week but now just editing is the worst part of it. I have so much footage to go through...

"It's four..."

"Why don't you get some sleep, I can wait. You just sound so tired." he suggested.

"No I have to stay up now. I have too much editing I need to do, I can talk while I edit, it's fine." I persuade him.

Marcel sighs. "I think your pushing yourself too hard. Your subscribers aren't going to care if you miss a couple days."

I begin to pull up sony vegas and start opening video files to go through while I listen to Marcel on the other end.

"I'm fine, I can handle it."

"Mini..."

"I said I can handle it. How's living with Tyler so far?" I try changing the subject.

If I can just pull through this until maybe eight or nine then I can get a couple hours sleep and then I can be ready for a session with Adam, Chilled and Sark. I just need to focus right now and not fall back asleep...

"It's fine. We're both adjusting. I don't know if you know but he finally took the plunge with Kelly. He's been going over to her house alot so maybe by the time you come back he might want to move in with her..."

"He won't... He's not the type of person to do that. He'll wait it out until they are fully serious." I cut him off.

I didn't even notice that we were both silent for at least ten minutes before I hear a cough from the other end. I was too busy concentrating on my footage that it didn't occur to me that we even stopped talking.

"Did you say something?" I ask.

"No, I just coughed."

"I thought I heard... never mind."

I know I said I could talk and edit but I seem to be zoning out on him so maybe I should let him speak but all this footage needs to be sorted out... 

"I miss you..." he blurts out.

His words make me stop what I'm doing and I can't help but smile a little. I'll stop for a couple minutes.

"Turn on your webcam, I wanna see you."

"I can't, it's not working." he replies.

There goes that idea...

"Just think... We can see eachother in a couple of weeks. I'm sorry for putting you through all of this."

"Yeah, yeah... to work on your channel, I get it." he snapped back at me.

"Are you angry with me?"

I think I hit a nerve. The way he just said that kind of made me think he doesn't care about my reasoning for staying here while he's back in LA. He's still pissed about it.

"Yeah I guess I am... Why couldn't you do all of this here? Don't say it was a distraction either. Your mom even said for you to go back with Tyler and I, so why couldn't you?"

I definitely hit a nerve. I was hoping we wouldn't fight, we were doing so well the last couple of weeks and now I struck a nerve.

"I didn't want to go back. I wanted to focus on my channel and that's what I'm doing. Why is this an issue now? You were fine the last two weeks so I don't understand what the problem is now?"

"There's always some problem with us isn't there..." he growls.

"Marcel, hey! What is the matter? Your acting like a total..."

"What? A total what?!" he begins to raise his voice.

Fight number three hundred and fifty four and counting... I really thought that we were over all this fighting but now I guess we're not. I really don't want to fight with him, we do stupid things whenever we fight.

"Listen to me, I don't want to fight with you so can we just go back to the 'I miss you' conversation because I miss you too. I know this whole arrangement isn't what you wanted but there is only a couple more weeks until I can finally wrap my arms around you so just hold on to that thought, okay? Hold on to that."

"I-I'll try..." he mumbles back.

"Whenever you are struggling just imagine what it's going to be like when I show up at that door. Think about the last night we spent before you headed back home. Just hold on for fourteen more days. The time will fly by. I will make all this up to you, I swear on my life Marcel. I swear." I continue.

"I'll hold you to that..."

A week later.

"Are you sure you can't come back now? He's so fucking mopey around here it's depressing the house energy seriously..." Tyler says.

"He can't be that sad? He seemed fine yesterday."

Tyler scoffs. "Yeah cause he's a good actor to you but once you say your goodbyes he is literally the worst person to have a conversation with. He just has a sour look on his face, like he looks like he's sucking a lemon right now..."

Is he really struggling with this? Do I need to come back now? I feel like my channel is doing quite good so maybe I should come back early...

"Put him on the phone."

Tyler agrees to give him the phone and I wait anxiously for the response.

"Hello?" he says.

"Just keep holding on babe, okay?"

There was no reply though. I wait a little longer but Tyler's voice comes through instead.

"He just gave me back the phone but he looks like someone just killed a dog."

Maybe this isn't a good idea. He clearly isn't handling this. Maybe it's bringing up old memories of his long distance relationship with Simone. Putting him through this was a stupid decision. Why do I always have to think of myself?

"Tyler, I'm coming back. He doesn't seem like himself. I'm going to go check some flights now, just don't tell him I'm coming back early, I want to surprise him."

I hang up the phone and immediately check to see if there is any tickets for either today or tomorrow.

"MOM?!" I yell out.

I skim through the listings and see one ticket left for today at 11.20am and it's non stop. This is perfect. I can handle a ten hour flight for him. He needs me so I need to get moving and ask the dreaded question for my mother when she comes in.

"You're up very early honey, what did you want?"

She waltz in the door and looks at me weirdly when she saw I had my 'special' face that I do when I want something.

"Can you pay for this plane ticket? I'll pay you back but I need the money now."

"I thought you were going to wait until later in the week to buy your ticket? It would be cheaper darling." she answers.

"No, mom. I-I'm leaving here today. Well I'm hoping to... That's if you can pay for this ticket. Marcel needs me and I gotta go see him..."