Random Crap

I cant help but wonder...

I cant help but wonder what its truly like to be alone. To live in a world where all you can see it the darkness surrounding you, almost engulfing you. The constant darkness making you start to question your sanity yet you know its slipping away slowly but surely. Soon you feel the need to doubt yourself at everything you do. Its not you want to, its become a habit that you need to. Can you imagine? All this just happening in your head while in the real world you just plaster a smile on your face and say your okay. I cant help but wonder, is it true everyone will leave eventually. Your mom, dad, whoever, they will soon not be part of your own life anymore and you just fade away from their thoughts. Looking down at your shaking hands you ask yourself 'am I a person? Am I normal? Is this what normal people think about?' Soon you just get too deep into your head your just silent and unfocused. You cant hear or see anything. If anything the only things you can hear is your cruel and messed up thoughts. You want to block them up but they refuse to go anywhere without a fight.