*1 new message*
To Pops,
I hope you aren't mad at me, although I wouldn't blame you, I'm angry at myself. I loved you and well, I just wanted you to know that I still love you and I'll never stop loving you Pops. That day was nothing but a play in which we both had played the main roles, Holly had set us both up to break us apart. I had to lie to you because I wanted you to forget me, because Holly had made up some bullshit and made it look like it had come from my label.
It's been 2 months and I'm sick Poppy. I'm dieing.
My days are beyond mine or the doctors control, only be predicted by the ticking clock, it was in the hands of my doctors and the hospital. My hair has been shaved off, my muscles have all wasted away, my blood has been infected with various macromolecules that cuts down by bodily systems, Cancer. I've lost my weight, my attitude, my will to live even. Everything has vanished except for one thing, one thing the virus couldn't take away from me, the one thing I pleaded not to be taken from me… My unconditional love for you, that is the only thing that grew even through my chemo and radiation. I just wanted you to know that you have been the perfect girl, the love of my life, the one that made me see colour when I was having a blue day, the one that showed me the world how it is supposed to be seen. Whenever you do feel lonely close your eyes and I’ll be there in front of you, holding you tight like your guardian angel until you find your perfect woman, I'm sorry I couldn't be her, I'm sorry I fucked everything up for us. There is nothing to worry because time heals pain and you’ll surely get on with your life and…
*BEEP BEEP BEEP*
"FUCK." I breathed heavily as my alarm went off. I'd woken up from my slumber to find that I'd been crying in my sleep. I'd had a new dream, one that scared me the most.
Jessie leaving my life permanently is something I cannot handle.
I really need to see someone about this…
finite… A little teaser!
