I woke up up disoriented . . . .
I thought i heard my mom wake me up . . .
saying 'for the hundredth time Shine! wake up already! youre going to be late!' . . .
I thought i could smell the aroma of hot pancakes in the air . . .
with melting butter . . .
yummy . . .
delicious . . .
tempting . . .
"Are you really awake this time?" Ms. HAiley asked as she leaned at the doorframe of my temporary room . . .
"Uhh . . . yeah . ." i replied . . .
Have there been lots of false alarms? . . .
"What time is it?" i asked her . . .
"8:30 on the dot "
"Crap! I'm late!! "
I quickly prepared . . .
Taking a bath with ice cold water . . .
dressing in a rush . . .
combing my shoulder blade length hair quickly . . . .
grabbing my bag . . .
and sprinting down the stairs, into the cafe and out before i knew it . . .
I could hear Ms. Hailey calling after me but i cant understand what she's saying . . .
I arrived at the school only to be disappointed . . .
Im so stupid . . .
Of course there were no classes . . .
Today is a saturday . . . .
sigh . . .
What is happening to me? . . .
Dad , you know what? . . .
Ever since you left . . .
Not a single thing has been going alright . . .
I wonder how mom's doing .. .
She's probably sick with worry right now . . .
She always is whenever she hurts me . . .
Not that she'd been hurting me before . . .
But I remember . . .
I was in Fifth grade . . .
My friends were all going to the party my classmate is throwing . . .
and i'm the only one who cant go . . .
I yelled at my mom back then . . .
telling her how she always keeps me in the house . . .
telling her stuff about not having any freedom . . .
She'd slapped me back then . . .
I ran out and went sulking on the soccer field . . .
Dad followed me there and talked me into getting home . . .
When i got home . . .
I was surprised . . .
Mom just -literally- threw herself at me . . .
