CONFUSED ABOUT MY FEELINGS

MUP PART ONE

Chris and rihanna were watching zootopia Chris loved cartoons even as as a kid growing up becoming into an adult he never lost at being a big kid ever.

Both Chris and rihanna spent the whole after noon just cuddling up in bed under the sheets and covers together, just enjoying each others company.

"Chris why are we watching zootopia"

"Cartoons are life" Chris said
" you would say that." I laughed
" they are though." He said soon he looked up at me with those beautiful brown orbs of his. Which were filled with lust.

" I love you Ri Chris said caressing my cheek.
I blushed "I love you too. I said Ross hesitantly.
Chris has always said 'iloveyou' but I just didn't feel right. It was always when we had sex. After we would have sex he would leave and I wouldn't see him for weeks turning into months. I just gave up on trying to save our relationship.
I sat there with a blank face looking down at my hands.
"I mean it Ri."Chris said. The way he said it with seriousness and sincereness just convinced me otherwise.
"Chris i-I don't k-know if we can start our relationship over again."
"Baby, don't you trust me? I love you OK? I don't care about them other girls. Fuck them."

I shook my head "I don't know Chris I-j-just don't want to get hurt." I said teary eyed reminiscing on the times Chris left me crying in our apartment

6 years ago
2009
Rihanna and Chris
New York, New York
I was in the living room writing my new song Rude boy for my upcoming album RATED R. I was sooo excited and determined to get this album ready for my fans and label.
Soon after the door flew opened and came in a drunken Chris.
"Where have you been, Chris?"
"Out." He said "why." He asked
"Do you know how long you've been out."
"Okay and?"
"I've been calling your phone it went to voicemail, plus I was worried about you."
"I turned my phone off." he said annoyingly
"Why in the hell did you do that?!" I yelled angry
" To not hear yo annoying bitch ass."

That set me off

He walked into the kitchen opened the refrigerator and grabbed a beer. Unphased
"What?" He said
"You think you can come in here and not have some type of fucking explanation on why you were out so late.
" 1 I'm grown and number 2 I don't have to always fucking check in with you to see if it's okay for me to know where I'm going or who I'm with?!"
"Calm down I just asked you a question." I said no need to go from 0-100 real quick.
"I was with the guys."
"Bullshit?!"
"Wym bullshit?!"
"No way you were with the guys or at the club."
"How you know?!"
"I called them the guys were with their girlfriends and the club closes at 1 so explain."
" I fucked Melissa?"
"What?" I said I said not believing him nor just processing what he said.
"You heard me."
I smacked him and as soon as his face turned all I saw was the devil. His eyes were both black filled with rage.
SMACK
FLASHBACK OVER.

By now I was crying

"Baby please." Chris begged silently crying also. "I'm sorry I said I was sorry."

"It doesn't work like that." I said sobbing.
"What can I do to make us an 'us' again.

"It will have to take time." I said

Next chapter coming later. Stay tooned. Read comment vote.