Aleatory

Chapter 6 | Xavier

Dedicated to arboretum because angst and Willvier. Happy Birthday.

______________________________________

Our breaths mingled together in short pants. The taste of his mouth on mine was intoxicatingly addictive. Our bodies pressed together in a tangled mess of limbs as I pushed him against the seat of the car gazing desperately into his eyes, as his pupils dilated showing just a thin ring of his stormy blue. 

We broke the heated kiss for a moment as he pulled off his printed tee and chucked it in the back. His fingers deftly unbuttoned my shirt and then he tugged it off throwing it right next to his.

My lips moved from his, down to his neck and rested right at his collar bone. His hands wound themselves in my hair as he tugged at my still red locks.

He moaned as I slightly bit down and sucked on his neck leaving a love bite. His hands trail down my chest and wrap themselves around my waist.

Our lips connected together again in a heated kiss and my hands unbuttoned my jeans and took them off leaving me in only my black boxers.

"Wait." Will panted but I ignored him and continued to nibble on his ear lobe.

"Xav stop, please." he said pushing me away.

"Don't worry, I won't go any further than this babe. I'm sorry if I'm rushing you." I said hugging him and burying my face into his neck.

"It's not that it's just that I don't want anyone to see us."

I moved away a bit "See us? We are literally in the middle of nowhere!"

"Xav stop. If someone sees and tells my parents I'm dead meat." he said pushing me off him onto the other seat.

"Will for Christ's sake we literally drove 45 minutes down to Newark just so that none from uni would come across us. We are miles away from Monroe College and even further away from your parents. There's no one here who knows us. Why the hell are you so afraid of your parents? Why can't you just tell them the truth - that you don't like girls and are dating me?" I said in frustration.

"Come on. You know how Orthodox they are. If they found out they would kill me. And on top of that, it's you of all the people."

"What do you mean by that?" I said narrowing my eyes at him.

He sat up straight and said, "You know what I'm talking about."

"No, I don't. Please do tell."

"Well... it's just you aren't exactly what you would call good boyfriend material okay. You are impulsive, reckless and a troublemaker. It's hot and exciting but you aren't really the type of person I would take home to meet my parents even if you weren't a guy."

Even though I pretended like I didn't care about what he was saying, it hurt. It hurt so bad that I just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry. But I couldn't. No, I wouldn't. Instead, I chose to lash out.

"I didn't know it before but now I do. Exactly how toxic this relationship is. It's just like your parents, isn't it? Broken. Messy. Always fighting but playing pretend for the daughter they love and the son they don't care about. It's good that you finally told me the truth. I didn't realize that I was fooling myself all this time and that you were really the asshole I thought you were."

His eyes glazed over and he whispered "I told you about my family because I thought you wouldn't take advantage of it."

"Well, I guess you were as wrong about me as I was about you."

"Get out. Get out of the fucking car now before I do something I'll regret."

"Fine. You can take your stupid family and your stupid self and shove it." I said as I began to gather my clothes.

"Get the hell out now. Fucking leave it all I don't care. Let's see how you make it back home in only your underwear." He opened the door from inside and pushed me out. I was left lying on the floor as he drove away.

I screamed once in blinding rage but then got up and trudged along towards the main road hoping to catch a ride with someone within an hour. But that was highly improbable. No one in their sane mind would give a ride to a guy with bright red hair, roaming around in only his underwear in the middle of the day.

But Will... Even though we were together for only a few weeks it felt like an eternity. I couldn't just move on from what we had. My vision blurred with the unshed tears in my eyes. Being lost deep in thought I didn't notice the oncoming car until it was too late.

I heard the screech of the brakes but I knew it wasn't going to help and for a moment fear gripped my heart before the car crashed into me knocking the breath out of me as my head banged into the hood of the car.

And then I lost consciousness.