Imperfect

Hold On

Natasha’s POV

Akhir-akhir ini gue aga kepikiran tentang coklat itu.. well I love that chocolate, and I want to thank someone who gave that.
Diem-diem gue berharap ini dari Brandon hahahaha.. wishful thinking banget si wkwwkwkwk

Malah jadi kepikiran Brandon -_-

Entah kenapa gue ngerasa Brandon lagi ngejauh dari gue.. ga biasanya dia kayak gini..
Tiap ngeliat gue, dia cuek, bahkan cenderung ngehindar..
Mungkin ini Cuma perasaan gue?
Ato emang kenyataannya gitu?
Gue harap semua bakal baik-baik aja

Ruang Musik

I saw him, maybe I have to talk to him..

“ Bran?”
“ wudh?” dia ga nengok ke gue ):
“ um, can I ask you something?”
“ sorry nat, maybe later. Gue udh dijemput, bye”
He's tryin’ to avoid me
Dia ga biasanya bilang bye,, and I hate that word
Karna bye, mnurut gw adalah ucapan slamat tinggal, dan gue g akan ketemu orang itu dalam waktu yang lama..

Couple days later

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

Avril lavinge-when you’re gone

I just thought about those lyrics…

“ Nat, lo kenapa sih? Ngelamun mulu” I think about him..
“ ga, Cuma kecapean aja Li..”
“ yakin? Udah makan belom?” I have to cheer up :)
“ eh ngomongin soal makanan, dari tadi perut gue laper banget. Mau nemenin ke kantin ga nyari makanan?” gue harap Liam percaya sama acting gue, maaf li gue bohong
“ ngomongin makanan aja langsung semangat hahahaha” dia percaya yey
“ yaudah gue laper, mau ga ke kantin?”
“ oke, sekalian gue mo beli minum”

Sepanjang perjalanan kami dari kelas sampe kantin, ga sepatah kata pun keluar dari mulut gue.. karna gw masih mikir kenapa Brandon makin jauh dari gue setiap harinya..

“ ngelamun mulu lo Nat”
“ hah? Lo ngomong apa barusan?” gue bener-bener ga konsen

And I saw him

Brandon

Gue senyum ke arah dia.. tapi ?

Dia bahkan ga mau ngeliat muka gue..

Apa gue salah ngomong?

Apa seharusnya gue ga senyum?

Dia ngelewatin gue gitu aja, tanpa senyum, ngejek, ngejailin, dan bahkan dia ga nengok ke arah gue..
Nafas gue mendadak sesek..

Rasa sakit itu seakan menguasai tubuh ini, rasa perih dan kecewa.. ini bukan pertama kalinya dia nyuekin gue, tapi tetep perih

“Nat, lo kenapa?”
“ what?”
“ lo gapapa?”
“ eh, li, lo kek kantin sendiri gapapa kan?”
“ gapapa sih, lo kenapa?”
“ engga, medadak pusing trus ga pengen makan.. duluan ya”

Gue pun berlari meninggalkan liam yang masih terdiam di tempat.
Gue ga peduli sama apa yang orang pikir tentang gue sekarang..
Gue butuh Sky, sekarang

Pulang sekolah

“….. I don’t know what to do Sky, he ignored me, he avoided me”
“ nat..”
“ help me Sky”
“ hold on, if you don’t fight for what you want, don’t cry for what you lost”

“ but it’s the worst feeling when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly avoiding you and you have to act like you don’t care at all”

“ lo mesti bertahan Nat”
“ Sky, gue ga tau salah apa,”
“ Semua orang punya alesan Nat, mungkin dia lagi cape?”
“ dan jadinya ngehindar dari gue berhari-hari ?”
“ jangan dipikirin,”
“ he’s my bestfriend”
“ and your crush”

Mungkin gue emang harus bertahan dulu..

I think, I have to talk with him

*chats on Line

U there

Wat?

Busy?

Biasa aja

Um, can I ask you something

Yaas

Promise me bakal dijawab

Be quick then

Lo kenapa bran?

Gpp

You’re ignoring me ?

If I ignored you, I won’t replied your messages

Iya sih
Can I call u ?

Can’t stay late, sorry

Sorry

For what

Ngerepotin lo, nganggep lo selalu salah

kalemwe

I’m really sorry for that.. cuz I’ve made so much mistakes

Well, it’s okay.. but I have to sleep now, bye

Bye

*chats end

I hate to say “bye”
Kalo gapapa, kenapa dia ngehindar?
I don’t want us to be strangers…

A/N
Hi semua, maaf baru update.. kmrn2 abis UTS, dan banyak tugas..
Maaf chaptnya pendek bgt..

See you gaes later

Love, Cal