I hung up the phone and I ran out the room to the bathroom and I sat on my floor and I started puking. I heard foot steps it was Zylen he saw me and he ran and slid on the floor beside me and he held my hair while I was puking. "Are you okay." He asked me
I pulled away from him and I started crying and he came closer to me and I backed up more and I screamed at him
"Don't come near me you will get hurt!"
"I don't care now what is wrong."
"Just get away from me please I don't want to hurt you I love you to much!"
He came closer to me. He tried to pull me in but I punched him in his face. I stared crying more because I didn't mean to hurt him he pulled away from me held his jaw where I had just punched him. He let go of his jaw and pulled me in. He held me tight even when I tired to pull away I couldn't. He held me for awhile until I stopped crying he cupped my face and made me look him in the eyes and he asked me
"Now what is wrong love."
"It's all my fault."
"What is your fault."
"I told him to overdoes and die and he did."
"Who?"
"My dad."
"He is dead?"
"Yah he was just found dead."
"Where is your mom?"
"I don't know. I don't care either."
"I'm so sorry and it's not your fault things happen."
"No it is my fault I should have never told him that and I never said sorry to him. I will never get the chance to either."
"It is fine. Everything will be okay, I promise."
"I'm sorry for punching you. I told you to stay away from me I didn't want to hurt you."
"Don't be sorry I had the chance to stay away from you but I didn't want to it was my fault not yours."
"I think i want to go to bed."
"You want me to join you?"
"I think i want to be alone"
" Okay when you are ready come down and eat."
"okay i will"
i gave him a peck on his check and whispered "thank you for everything and i love you. You will also be loved just remember that."
"Lily what are you talking about."
"Nothing im just going to take a long nap."
I got into my room and i grabbed a bottle of pain killers i took one. Then two. Then three. Then four. I keep taking them until there were no more to take. I started to get very dizzy and i heard a knock on the door and i ignored it. I saw it open and i fell on the floor my vision was blurred it was Zylen. I was in and out of sleep i saw him ran to me and my eyes closed. when i opened my eyes again i was in the bathroom over the toilet and Zylen was trying to get me to puke up the pills and i blacked out again. This time when i opened my eyes we were in the car Zylen was telling Nova to make sure i still had a pulse. She did so and she turned to him saying i did. He began to speed. i don't know how fast we were going at this point. the last thing i remembered was Zylen grabbed my hand and said
"baby hold on please ill get you through this i love you and you need to hold on for me love please don't leave me i'm so sorry for everything that has happen to you and i'm sorry i wasn't there all the time i wish i was but i'm here now so don't go."
i shed a tear and said
"I love you, Zylen. I'm sorry but its to late i'm so sorry i love you so much."
He began to cry and i fell into the deepest slumber of my life.
