Til' Midnight || Yoo Youngjae

-3-

1:52pm

She agreed to meet me for lunch today. In fact she was the one to even suggest it. Though yesterday was a waste maybe today would go easier than I had expected?

Maybe

Normally I was a well organized being. When I didn't want something I took out I put it back the way it originally was. But today I was a wreck I was throwing things to the floor. I discarded them to a chaotic pile.

I needed to find the right outfit. If I felt good about how I looked then maybe I'd feel confident about what I was going to say.

By the time I found a decent pair of jeans she called. She was ready to meet and I was still without a top.

I slipped on a plaid button up and ran out without giving the messy room a second thought.

She looked cute in the pastel purple dress and the white tennis shoes. She smiled at me as we walked to our destination. It was in a way that made my heart thump rapidly in my chest. I blushed slightly as I let my hand graze hers as we walked. Maybe she would get the hint.

But she was unaware as usual. You'd think it would frustrate me, but somehow it made me happier to see her this way. To see her unaffected by the world around her.

We made it to the small Italian restaurant she loved so much. She squealed when the place came into sight. She squeezed on to my arm tightly out of pure excitement.

I smiled feeling my heart rate skyrocket. This was going perfectly.

We talked about some of the pointless things she loved so much. The things she made me love too.

It was still going well.

I called her name and she smiled brightly waiting for me to speak.

"There's something I've wanted to say to you for a long time and-"

I was attacked from behind. The arms locked around my throat. I slapped the arm violently and could feel the anger rise as the familiar laugh made it to my ear.

Daehyun

Did he always have to show up like this? I turned and it was all of them. All of our friends.

They pulled up a few chairs and an extra table so we could all fit. I wanted to tell them to leave but she welcomed them with a smile.

I couldn't confess in front of them. She'd feel too pressured. We'd both feel too awkward.

And so as we ate together I realized that i've lost yet another day. I wanted to scream and throw the intruders out with so much force they'd pass out. At least for just enough time that I could tell her I loved her.

I guess it wasn't in the cards for today.

Now the days are fewer.

Now I'm becoming more hopeless.

More desperate.

If I didn't tell her I'd never see her again.

I don't know if I could live with that.