One-sided love </3

One-sided love...

Ano ba yan?! Bakit ba umaabot ng dekada ang pagpasok sa school? Nagugutom na ko! >___<

“Pam, anong oras na?”, I asked her while she’s writing. Buti pa sya na-e-enjoy nya. T__T

“5 minutes before –“, ta’mo ‘to! Kitang kinakausap ko sya tapos titingin sya sa labas ng bintana? >__< “Uy Phau! Aly is out there.”, tas tinuro nya yung pintuan. “Hinihintay nya ata tayo! Hopefully.”

Well, I really missed Aly, di ata kami nagkita for 2 days. Yeah! Weekends came! :D Good, she’s here now! Gusto ko syang itapon sa pool. >:D

“Oh yeah! Nakikita ko sya. Kasama nya ba si April?”, tanong ko kahit di ako interesado. I’m just preparing still. -___- best pretender ata ‘to, of all season! T_T

Sasagot pa lang sana sya nang makita ko si April papunta kay Aly habang hawak yung kamay ni Jerold.

Aw! This feeling! I can feel it again! -__- yung feeling na ang sakit sakit sa puso. Ansakit, pero wait! There’s something in my eyes. Something like wet, and ready to fall.

I rolled my eyes just to stop it, but, I can’t! Anytime now, it will run into tears. Bakit ba nalikha ang luha? T__T and why did I have to fall in love to him?

Di ako galit kay April ha? And especially not even at Aly. WAIT! Just wait, I’ll explain it all.

Magka-age kami ni Pam. We’ve been friends for long lasting years. At si Aly, well, 2 years pa lang ata namin syang kilala? She’s a year older than us like April. Oh well, April? Dahil kaibigan sya ni Aly, what would you expect? Edi kasali na sya sa circle of friends namin. Magka-level din sila ni Aly at magka-age. And oh si Jerold? He’s older than me, like 2 years. He’s on the 12th grader already. Bestfriend ko sya. Yeah! Tama ka! HE is MY BESTFRIEND. The bestfriend of mine that I really love but does not, love me because he loves April.

Again, di ako galit kay April ha? I have no rights. I’m just a bestfriend here and not a girlfriend and surely I never will be because Jerold is already courting her. :))))) feeling ko lang.

Pero seryoso, nagseselos ako sa kanila. Nagpapanggap lang akong masaya. -____- weird right?

Pero di nyo ko masisisi! :P siguro, oo, pero it’s all Jerold’s fault, I think so. Sisigaw nya sa mundong bestfriend nya ko and yet si April lagi kasama nya. -___- so, anino nya lang ako, ganun? Kutusan ko sya ehh.

Porket so-called bestfriend ako dito, hahayaan ko lang sila? Well, actually, wala naman akong magagawa kaya oo na lang. Kahit na unti-unti akong namamatay sa tamis na dinudulot nilang dalawa. Is there anything that I can do? Wala naman, diba? So, pinipilit kong maging masaya at nagpe-pretend na lang akong masaya. Well, he’s my bestfriend, kung saan sya masaya, dun ako. Pero pa’no ko? T___T kaya nya din ba kong pasayahin?

Another one, again, I’m a bestfriend here not a bridge. -__- There are too crazy to realize that I love Jerold! Lagi nila kong ginagawang tulay! Magku-kwento si Jerold ng kung anu-ano tungkol kay April tas ganun din yung si girl. Sakit diba? Badtrip! Pero, okay! I have nothing to do but to count myself in! T___T kahit masakit at mahirap, para kay Jerold, sa bestfriend kong mahal na di ako mahal, go.

“You may go home now! Don’t forget your assignment for tomorrow huh? And oh, I forgot, we’ll be having our 3rd quiz tomorrow, so if you want to pass it, review! Goodbye class, see you tomorrow.”, I just realized, uwian na pala.

“Phau, tara na!”, Pam said so ngumiti na lang ako. A weak one. “Hey, huwag kang apektado, okay? Alam mo, kilala na kita! Alam ko may sakit sa saya at lungkot sa ngiti mo. Oo na Phau, pretender ka na! Tuloy mo lang yun!”, she smiled at me. “But make sure na iniiyak mo lahat yan ha? Ayokong maging bulkan ka na sasabog na lang bigla dahil sa mga natago mong sakit dyan sa puso mo. Pero, kahit bagay sila April at Jerold, mas bagay kayo ni Jerold, Pauline!”, napangiti ako sa sinabi nya. Yan gusto ko kay Pam ehh. She motivates me when I’m down.