Mutual [Tsukishima Kei]

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"What did you say you asshole?!"

"It must be harsh, knowing the truth, huh?"

"Go fuck yourself will ya?" This is the regular relationship between you and Tsukishima.

'How can I tell him I love him? It's impossible. The reason we start our fights, it's because of me. Even if he did like me, what would he see in someone like me?'

Tsukishima can be an ass but at times he was kind and he would lure you in by being the cunning person he was. The thing you like most was him always smiling while making fun of you. It would get you irritated but it made you blush whenever he'd smile.

You glanced at the blonde who stuck his tongue at you and grin. A vein pop out of your head but you tried to remain calm.

Even if you do tone it down once in a while, they are times where even you forget where you are and blurt things you don't really mean. It was a habit. A habit you wanted to change so much. People would often called you tsundere, which you might of agreed on sometimes. You believed you were a tsundere until one day someone said, "Don't compare yourself to a tsundere. Maybe anime girls are tsunderes but mostly girls from this world are practically bitches."

The one who said it? It was Tsukishima. And maybe he was a bit right.

Even though you and Tsukishima fought alot, you two also had spent together most during your free times. Sometimes the people around you, couldn't tell if you two were enemies, friends, or lovers.

"Is this what you like you damn bastard?! Making me cry, feeling frustrated?! I hate you, you hear me?! I hate you!" you stomp you way, feeling guilty running over you. You didn't want to turn back and apologize. It was the type of person you are and you hated it.

'Shit. Well fuck myself for saying those words. I went to far. Too harsh. Why was I was walking the opposite way? I could turn around and say sorry. Why can't I just be honest with myself for once?!'

"Damn it."❖❖❖ 'I did it again. Honestly, I don't know what I'm doing with teasing her around this whole time. She's pretty pissed too. I really like to see her idiotic expression. She probably don't want to hang out with me after that, huh?' Tsukishima puts his headphones on and take out his ipod to listen to some music. A song started to play making him reminding of the relationship of you and Tsukishima. He realizes his mind was on you then the lyrics. 'I wish I got to see her smile more...'

"If you continue to frown like that, you're going to get wrinkles before you become old." Tsukishima snickers.

"Shut the fuck up, Tsukishima." you snapped, tired to retort. You punch his arm and looked away as soon as he said, ow. The blonde rubs his arm and widens his eyes as he saw you about to tear up. "Can't you stop this already? You're making it harder for me. I'm done with your shit, Tsukishima."

You didn't want to have this sort if hate relationship while you have this one-sided love. Tsukishima looks at you and looks away.

"Whatever. How boring." he said, walking towards Kageyama and Hinata to go make fun of them. You clench your hands.

'You're doing fine, [Name]. Don't look at him. Just continue on.' the female tries to cheer herself up, looking down. Her bangs covered her eyes. Tsukishima looks behind her, knowing she was sad.

'Come on. Go back and tell her you're sorry. Didn't you want to see her smile more?' Tsukishima says to himself. But just when he was about to reach you, Hinata quickly rushes to your side.

"[Last Name]-chan, you okay?" he asks, noticing her head down.

"I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be?" you said, faking a smile.

"Are you free after practice? I want to tell you something."

"Eh what is it?" trying to be more joyous.

"It's a secret." he winks. "Kay, I'll see you after club? I'll meet you in front of the entrance and we can walk home."

"Sounds good." you agreed. You looked at Tsukishima and looked away. Tsukishima clenches his hand, thinking how terrible knowing you would be walking home with another guy.❖❖❖ "So what did you wanted to tell me?" the female said, warmly.

"Well before we go home, I wanted to tell you. I really love you! Will you go out with me?" the female turn red, her jaws open, clenching her hands.

"Me?!"

"Y-Yeah. I really like you!" the orange hair shouted. He looks at you so flustered. Hinata looks down. showing a small smile. "It couldn't happen, huh? I'm too short and you probably like that idiot, Tsukishima.. Haha..."

"No! It's not like that!" you denied, loudly. Your heart felt like it was being heavy. It felt like your heart was being a burden. Does your heart know you're lying? "I like you too, Hinata. I'm just so happy that I didn't know how to react."

"So then?!"

"Yep. We're boyfriend and girlfriend. Take care of me." the female bows down, still smiling.

"Right! I will cherish you properly!" Hinata bows down. You looked into his eyes, for a moment you showed a sad look on your face but on the outside it was shown that you were really happy. Inside, you felt so bad for lying to Hinata. 'I'm sorry Hinata. I'll use you to get over Tsukishima. I'm sorry. I'll look at you properly, I promise.'

Tsukishima watches at the two head home. He was making a fist and his eyes were filled with envy, sorrow, and regret. "Tsukki, let's go."

"Right..." the blonde said, coldly. 

Even though the feeling was mutual, how come the story didn't have a happy ending?