Coming home/meeting him(Mithzan X reader)

Chapter 3: feelings?

(Y/N p.o.v. Also 3 days later)

Me and Adam drove home in silence. I sat, staring out the window day dreaming. We soon got home and walked inside. I darted to my room (which has a bathroom attached if i didn't mention it earlier) and threw my bag down. I hated this. Liking a guy you don't know if he likes you as well. It was so frustrating! You thought back to earlier, having him holding me made me feel at home. I felt safe. I am still so frustrated! So you decided to do what you always do when you feel like this. You walked into the bathroom and started to make a bath. You walked out as you got undressed. You took off your rings and bracelets. You then walked over to your bedside table and opened the drawer. You picked up your razor blade and walked back to your bathroom. Your bath was ready so you shut off the water and slid in. Once you were laying down you looked at your wrists. The both of them were covered with scars, overlapping and criss-crossing. You just decided to just overlap. You heard a knocking on the the door and got up and locked it. *Adam doesn't need to see this* you thought. ~Play song now~ As you slid back you started to cut. As the sharp razor slid over the rough skin it opened up a pocket of blood. As the blood pooled into the tub you heard  the knocking again. This time harder and more urgent. You didn't do  anything. You heard your bedroom door open. *Adam must be worried* you thought. "Y/N? Are you in there?" came from the other side of the door. *Fuck* you said in your mind. "Yeah. Yeah I am" you replied, you could hear your own voice crack. "Are you alright? You sound like you're in pain" he called. *So i am in pain. My body has become to used to this* you thought. "Yeah I'm fine. Don't worry" you cried. You heard footsteps as he walked away. You tilted your head back and closed your eyes and waited for the blood to stop.

                    (Time skip 15 minutes)

(Adams p.o.v)

Y/N has been in there for awhile and I'm starting to get worried again. *Maybe she's sleeping* i tried to tell myself. But my conscious wouldn't allow it. I started to walk back up stairs. As I walked back into Y/N's room to see her on her hands and knees scrubbing away these red little splotches. *What is it* i thought. I shrugged and walked back down stairs to get ready for movie night.

(Y/N p.o.v)

8 minutes later I finally stopped bleeding. So I got out and dried off. I walked into my room and put on: a white loose long sleeve top, white exercise shorts and my hair was in a ponytail.I looked down to see little red blobs of where my blood got on the carpet. I walked back into bathroom and got a scrubber and a bucket of water and started to clean it up.

(Maxs p.o.v)

For once I was glad that Adam invited me to his stupid movie night. I would get to see Y/N again and ask if she was ok. I'm also planning on telling her that I liked her. I don't know how i'll get her alone, but i'll try.

(Y/N p.o.v)

After I got done cleaning the spots up I heard a knock on the door frame. I looked over to see Adam. "Hey, you need something?" I asked. "Uh, no but um, tonight we're having a movie night." (If you guys are wondering i'm not doing Alesa's p.o.v) "At what time?" I wanted to know. "Here in 10 minutes" he responded. "k". As he left I thought I should change. So I changed into: a pair of black yoga pants but kept the same shirt on. I pulled my hair down so it hid my mark. The constant reminder of me trying to die. I wiped my eyes. I heard Adam yell from down stairs "Y/N! Get down here" *show time* I thought. As I walked down stairs I heard familiar voices. Ross, Jin, Red, and... Max! You rushed the rest of the way down stairs and went to the living room. "She's dirt" Barney said. "Hi" I waved to everyone. I searched the room with my eyes, but I couldn't find Max. *Maybe hes is the kitchen* you thought. You walked into the kitchen to see Max and Adam taking. "Hey" you said, clearly shocking them both. You walked over and got a glass of water that you didn't want. You stared at Max's shirt. *Look at the way his shirt forms his body. You can see every arm muscle* I thought. I felt myself blush. "Damn it!" I said aloud. Both of them started to laugh. Adam looked from me to Max, then patted my shoulder and said "I'm going to go put the movie on" and he walked out. As he walked out it became really awkward. I decided to tell him. So the pain can go away easier. "Max, can i tell you something?" I asked. "Sure" he responded. "Max I just wanted to tell you that, from the first day I met you I fell in love. And I don't think that I can get back up" I said while look at my feet, but I continued "You're the first guy that I don't want to punch in the face. So I'm dropping the tough girl act and saying that I like you". I looked up to see him staring at me. "Will you go out with me?" I asked in pleading tone. He stepped forward, closing the space between us, and cupped my face with his hands, and kissed me. Slowly and passionately kissing. I put my arms around his neck and stood on my tippy-toes. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING TO MY SISTER!" I heard Adam yell. We let go of each other as I turned to face Adam. "I-I can, um e-explain" I stuttered "No! No ecu-" he stopped in the middle of his sentence. "Adam, are you ok?" I asked. "Yeah, but are you ok? Your arm is bleeding!" he said while pointing to your arm. All I remembered was feeling light headed and someone catching me. Then everything went black.