An Unforgettable Night

Thanksgiving Day

This morning we woke up at 1O cause we are going with Bridgette & Jacob to these peoples' house for early Thanksgiving dinner.

When we were done getting ready, we left. The drive was an hour long.

We followed behind his brother to the peoples' house. I am so anxious cause I've never met these people before!

When we had arrived some guy came out & greeted us. We went inside. It was a nice home & the people were nice--especially this one woman.

I had started my fucking period at like 6:OO in the morning! I hadn't had my period so I thought I was pregnant--I'm not.

We got ourselves some food, it was really good. We watched the football game too.

After of being there & talking to one another we ended up leaving. Bridgette & them went somewhere else.

"You're gonna be mad, but I have something to tell you." Josh turned to me & said while driving. My heart was racing really fast. "What? Are you breaking up with me? Is there another girl?" I said almost crying. "No! If there was another girl, I wouldn't be with you." He said. "Then what? I said about to cry. "You can't live with me but I don't wanna break up." He said. I got silent & then started balling my eyes out. I had misheard what he said, I thought he said he wanted to break up. "Why do you wanna break up? Why can't I live with you?" I said sobbing. "God's not gonna help me with you living with me." Josh said. I didn't say a word. I just sat there & cried.

After a moment of silence Josh says "Christina?" I still didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say or where to begin. I mean I had so many questions running through my head. Like why can't I live with him? Why is he kicking me out now? Did I do something wrong? Is he seeing someone else? I just had these questions running through my head & I just couldn't seem to spit them out--instead I sat there & sobbed all the way back to the apartment.

"Christina?" Josh said touching my arm. "What?" I said crying still. "Don't cry. I'm not breaking up with you. You just can't live with me." He said. I just cried even more.

When we finally got back to the apartment, I still didn't say a word! I went in & started packing my stuff still crying. I wrote my aunt & told her what was going on. She wrote me back saying that I had to give her & her husband $2OO upfront to stay there! Like fuck that. So I called my dad & told him what was going on. I couldn't live with my dad because me & my aunt don't get along & he don't have enough bedrooms. So then I called my grandma & she said that I could come & stay. She said that she wasn't gonna let me go to the streets--I was basically homeless. Josh knew I had nowhere to ho if I moved out of Holly's. I never saw myself being kicked out while living with Josh.

After a while, Josh was ready to take me back. I was going to my grandmas house. I wanted so badly for Josh to just turn the car around & let me stay with him--that didn't happen.

I cried & cried. I literally thought I couldn't cry anymore & I did! I was silent the whole way to my grandmas house.

When we arrived, I got out of the car & went inside my grandmas house. I saw my mom so I immediately went to her, hugged her & just cried. "I know baby, it's okay!" She said mad. "I should say something to him. That's fucked up!" She added. Josh was standing right there. "Mom, don't. Don't say anything to him. Don't make it worse!" I said crying.

I went back out & got my stuff. Josh helped me. After I had got settled & Josh left I wrote my  cousin Brittany & told her what was going on & she came & picked me up. I went & stayed with her. I didn't stay at my grandma's at all!