My Moon My Sun & All My Stars || Shamila

Chapter 19: VMA's

Shawn's  Pov-

   I arrived in LA about two hours ago the time now is 1pm and in my hotel room it's a mess. There's about 20 people in here trying to get my hair and clothes fitted and Camila's in here as well because she has to get ready too since we have to pretend we're 'dating'. I put on my clean navy blue shirt, a leather jacket and jeans. Yes I know it's my casual look but it's my signature look too & I wouldn't be Shawn Mendes without it.
      Camila was walking around the hotel room practically naked because her dress was being altered. It turns out Clarissa needed to make the dress a size smaller because Camila wanted it to be tighter and more fitting. I kept trying to not look at Camila when she was roaming the dressing room in just her bra and pajama shorts but I kept catching myself checking her out on accident. FOCUS SHAWN. She was basically cheating on me, I don't need that type of disrespect anywhere near me so it's better if I let her go. "Camila! Here go put it on once you're done with hair and makeup." Clarissa said as Camila nodded her head in agreement while she was still sitting in the chair getting her makeup done. About 15 minutes later she was finished with hair and makeup and she ran into the bathroom to get her dress on. Once she came out my jaw dropped. I promised myself I would not be tempted to give in or to even look at Camila but God really spent his time with this one. She looked absolutely beautiful from head to toe. Yes I've drooled over girls who were pretty before but Camila just has something about her that makes me love her. Excuse me, Camila had something about her that made me love her. "I don't feel good in it but it's just that I've been putting myself down a lot lately... thank you Clarissa and Shawn's team for making this possible I love you guys you're incredibly talented and it's amazing that you guys styled me today thank you thank you thank you!" Camila said as she hugged a majority of my team. The first part of what she said hurt to hear. The fact that she's been putting herself down a lot lately; but I don't care anymore she's not my girlfriend. Not my girlfriend, not my problem. About an hour later Camila, my manager Andrew, my mom, and I went down to the VMA studios in our limo because I had to make a red carpet appearance with Mila and I had a few interviews here and there.
    The minute I stepped out of the limo we heard fans screaming. I took a minimum of 10 photos and I signed a few things I could get my hands on but Andrew was telling me to go to the carpet because we can't afford to waste any time. I sighed and prayed that Camila and I could pull this off. I grabbed her hand and intertwined our fingers. "W-what're you doing?" Camila asked with a confused look on her face. "What do you think I'm doing? We have to pretend like we can stand each other." I said without even looking at her. I heard her mumble something under her breath and right before I was going to say something back to her an interviewer stopped me before we went on the red carpet. "Shawn!" Chelsea Briggs the interviewer said. I squeezed Camila's hand as a heads up hoping she understood that I meant we have to act like a couple now. "Chelsea how are you last time I saw you was on Taylor's tour? right?" I said as Chelsea answered. About 4 minutes later Camila and Chelsea were talking and Chelsea dropped the bomb. "So Camila I know I won't be able to get anything out of Shawn because he loves his privacy but how great of a boyfriend is he?" Chelsea asked Mila as she held the mic to her mouth. Camila looked at me and stuck her tongue out as I did the same back at her. This was a smart move because it made Chelsea think Mila and I are playful which is clearly not the case especially not right now since we're broken up. "Um honestly Shawn is the worst boyfriend ever. He's mean, he's stinky, and he never pays attention to me." Camila said as she gently pushed me and Chelsea laughed. Camila began to speak again, "No but really Shawn's a great guy he's an extremely good listener and he's one of those people where like-" Camila stopped talking. I could tell she was getting choked up but she continued on with her sentence. "Sorry um- but yeah Shawn's just one of those people where you can be yourself around him 24/7 and you don't have to worry about feeling judged because I guarantee you no matter how embarrassing you think you are, Shawn will prove you wrong by doing something even more embarrassing." Camila said as Chelsea laughed and I denied her answer. "Alright well we're going to wrap up this interview but it was so nice catching up with you Shawn and Camila it was a pleasure to meet you sweetie." Chelsea said as Mila and I agreed and went to the next interview.

Camila's Pov-

   This has got to be at least the 6th interview Shawn and I have done and we are literally just repeating our answers because the interviewers all ask the same question. 'How'd you meet?' ..... 'Camila how does it feel to have a famous boyfriend?' and my favorite at the moment, 'Do you guys ever fight?' The questions were ridiculous but some were fun I'm not going to lie. It was so strange that I'm walking the carpet with Shawn because I literally am not famous at all like I sing and play guitar but I'm not known for that, I'm not known for anything here except for being Shawn's stupid girlfriend. Every time I saw a celebrity I had to remember to keep my cool or else Shawn would kill me. Once it got dark and the interviews all finished up we got to the actual award show. Shawn performed Stitches while I cheered him on. He sounded amazing and I couldn't help but cry when he performed because Shawn had truly made it. All he ever talked about was being famous and no he didn't want to be famous for the fact that he has fans or the fact that he gets money; Shawn always told me he wanted to be famous so that he could reach out to others with his music because he knows how much music has been there for him basically his entire life so he's always wanted his music to be there for someone else if they ever felt upset and needed to feel good again.
        About two hours later the award show was done. It was a pretty good day. Shawn and I didn't really argue or bicker at one another. Except for a few side eyes we gave each other it went by pretty smoothly and the media still thinks we're dating. I know I seem fine but it still hurts. Being with Shawn. Not being with him in a relationship but being in his presence and practically being forced to talk to him and socialize and smile and act like him and I aren't both breaking when we clearly are. Well- I am at least.
       Shawn and I were going to sleep in the same hotel room because the hotel we were staying at was packed especially since it was Sunday and of course with my luck, we had to share a bed. Although our plane would take us back to Toronto in the morning so we had to wake up early of course. We both got into bed; I wore my black leggings and a big shirt to bed. Of course Shawn was going to sleep shirtless. Fuck, why does he do this shit. "Goodnight..." I said as I laid down next to him. "Goodnight Camila." he said as he sighed. Well I mean hey at least he said my name without cringing.
      "Shawn I can't do this." I said as I sat up and looked at him as he was laying down. He groaned. "Camila can we please not do this now, I'm tired." Shawn said as he put the pillow over his face. "Shawn if not now then when??" I said as I grabbed the pillow from his face. He sat up on the bed as well. "NEVER. Camila don't you get it? Obviously I sti-" he got distracted by me because I started crying. "N-no Mila don't cry please don't cry." he said as he held me into his chest. "Shawn I promise with every fiber in my body that I never cheated on you and Cody was literally a boy I met for a minute at target and he asked for my number you know how bad I am at saying no to people but I promise Shawn don't you dare think for ONE second that I ever thought about cheating on you. Because I never did and I never will I love you with all of my heart Shawn and if you can't see that then I'm sorry because I obviously haven't done a good job at showing you how much you mean to me." I said as Shawn started playing with my hair. "Camila, it's much more complicated than that. Yes I didn't let you explain yourself which is stupid on my part but baby; you are literally everything to me Mila. I can't even imagine you being with anyone else except me and I'm sorry that might sound selfish but I want you. I want all of you and I want every inch, every scar, every freckle, everything." After Shawn said that I immediately kissed him. I grabbed his face and kissed him as hard as I have ever kissed him before. "I'm sorry." Shawn said as he broke the kiss. "Me too." I said as I reconnected our lips. Shawn and I were still on our hotel bed and he cut off our kiss again. "WAIT. I'll take you to the Apple Store tomorrow to buy you a new phone I'm a dick I'm sorry Mila." I laughed at his comment. "It's okay Shawn I got a new phone, and yes you are a dick." I said as we continued our kissing.