Am I Insane?

Chapter 14

*Sam's pov*

I'm sitting on the couch on Ben's bus. Today is the day I go to another band. Pierce the Veil, to be exact. I've met many people and they all are amazing. I've made a lot of friends here, it's unbelievable.

I feel the couch sink down next to me. I look over and see Ben. He looks upset.

"You okay?" I ask. Ben laid down across the couch and put his head in my lap.

"I don't want you to go." He mutters.

"Ben, I'm just going to another bus, not another country." I giggle as I start playing with his hair.

"So, who's going to keep me warm at night?" He asks.

"Danny can keep you warm." I smirk.

Ben looks up at me and laughs.

"Can you hang out with Pierce for the day and stay the night with me?" Ben asks.

"Ben, I'm friends with all of Pierce now, they would be offended if I left them for you."

"Its unfair." Ben sighs.

"Awwe, is our little Benjamin in love?" Danny asks as he emerges from the bunk room. I look up and scream, hiding my eyes.

"My innocence, its gone." I cry out.

"What innocence?" Danny laughs.

"Daniel go put pants on, please. I really don't want to see that."

"Danny, go put pants on you fucking wanker!" Ben shouts, trying not to laugh.

"That is something I'm not going to miss when I leave." I giggle.

"Can I kidnap you? It's possible." Ben says.

"Ben, give up. Its not going to work." I laugh.

"Ugh." Ben groans.

"Yeah yeah, suck it up buttercup."

Ben sticks his tongue out at me. I laugh and continue to play with his hair. Danny reemerges from the bunk room, fully clothed this time. He sat down on the couch across from me and Ben. I think its going to be hard to sleep for a few nights on another bus. I've gotten use to having Ben next to me, keeping me warm, and willingly cuddling with me. He is an amazing guy and I'm starting to fall for him, hard. I'm scared to admit it though. What if Ben decides Im not what he wants? What if he finds someone better? Someone prettier, smarter, smaller, taller. Im not good enough. Why even try? Im not what Ben wants. Im not his type.

I feel someones thumb go across my cheek. I look and see Ben looking at me with concern. I had made myself cry.

"You okay, love?" Ben asks. I just nod my head. "Then why are you crying?"

I just shake my head. I dont want to answer. I dont want to scare him off.

"Please tell me whats wrong." Ben says. I just shake my head. Ben really won't want me if I tell him what I'm thinking.

My phone went off. I look down and see a text from Danny.

D: what's wrong love?
M:I'm scared to tell Ben that I'm falling for him.
D: why?
M: what if he realizes I'm not what he wants? There are girls out there who are prettier, skinnier, smarter. I'm not good enough for him. Why would he want me?
D: Sam, I've never seen Ben so happy. YOU are his world. YOU are all he talks about when we are out. YOU are what changed him. YOU are all he needs. YOU are the only one who can keep him like that. Yeah he's in a rock band, big whoop he's famous, but none of that matters to him now that YOU are here. YOU have stayed by his side when he needed someone the most. YOU are what he needs, what he wants. You and only YOU.
M: you're making it sound like he's never been like this.
D: he hasn't. You have changed him and everyone likes it. And you better tell him before this tour ends, or I will. Understood?
M: understood.
D: good, now go get your man.