The Girl

Beginnings

Before I knew it we started to hang out! Finally getting over the initial fear of meeting mom and surprise bonus her sister, we were sitting at opposite ends of the couch awkwardly talking about school as a cliché horror movie played in the background. Her mom and sister were and are very sweet  and meeting her sister reminded me of my sister who once had abandon me when I was born. I so desperately wanted to put my arm around her for the first time though so I began to text her friend about it and it turns out she was too! In no time I was right next to her and my arm was around her! Everything felt so right like it was meant to happen and she was suppose to have been in my arms all along. As time passed we eventually kissed for the first time too, now it wasn't the most romantic kiss it was really really awful but to me it wasn't because it was her and we shared our first kiss as a couple. One of us tried to kiss our lips ass the other pushed with their tongue. To say the least it was awkward especially because I looked at her spoke the only word,
"hey"
and pulled her towards me. It couldn't have gotten any worse but it couldn't have gotten any better either!

More time passed and we grew closer. We spoke about our past, I revealed my depression and to my surprise she revealed hers along with some underlying problems which broke my heart. I loved and still do love her so much hearing that she hurt herself in anyway just broke me like a dry twig. From that moment onward I vowed to her I'd become my very best for her so I could even possibly help her in any way. If I didn't what boyfriend or example would I be for my love? Speaking of love, a few months after we first initially hung out I told her I loved her for the first time because I thought it was long enough to figure out if I really did love someone; secondly, because I couldn't wait  any longer to tell her. Every time I'd lay down at night and just tell her goodnight I had a burning urge to tell her I loved her too. Luckily, again, to my surprise, she said she loved me too! As I've always been with this girl she sent me heads over heels for her yet again.

More time passed to my surprise because I thought she'd leave after a month but it was a real relationship and I was so fortunate that it was/is with her. I only began to scratch the surface at what a beautiful person she is inside and out she never failed to amaze me. I never trusted anyone more in my life and never let anyone in my heart or have so much trust so fast, we just click so well. Of course there were bumps such as people trying to spread rumors and tear us apart but we overcame them as a couple and that made us stronger and made me trust her even more.

People tend to poke at things they envy or want sometimes, but you never ever mess with love. Little did or does anyone really know how much I truly love her.