*****Normani's POV*****
I can't believe this shit right now. How could they do something like this? Who do they think they are fucking with my life like this? How the fuck is any of this shit fair? I guess life isn't fair sometimes. It happens.
"I can't believe they gave us only five napkins and three sauces for all these damn wings." Ally, Camila, and I were sitting in the cafeteria having lunch. Camila had a huge fear of hospital food, so we ordered some food to come here. "I can't even use one sauce for all this" Ally whined, her lips stained with hot sauce. Mila has sauce all over her entire face. "Mila has plenty to share Als. Just look at her." She was so confused as we laughed at her.
Lauren decided to stay with Dinah, so we didn't bother them. Knowing her, Dinah was probably receiving a philosophy lecture for the past hour at least. Although she won't listen, maybe the baby will pick up a thing or two. "Mani, do you want to check on them" Ally asked. "Sure. I can go check it out."
I went up to the room, waiting outside the room since it looked like they were talking. Lauren was holding Dinah to her and they were cuddling. I couldn't blame her though. Cuddling with either of those two is A1. But then...it got a little more friendly.
I didn't want to think too much of it because we all look gay when we're with each other. But then Dinah laid her hand on Lauren's. And they looked at each other the way... The way Lauren looks at me. I didn't want to see this. At the same time, I couldn't look away.
"No. Please Lauren, no." I prayed outside the room as I watched the scene play out. But she did exactly what I knew she would do. She used her sly ass way with words and sucked poor hormonal Dinah into it. "Mother fucker" I yelled out, tears threatening to spill from my eyes. I wouldn't give her the satisfaction of knowing she hurt me.
I just got myself together, waited until they stopped, and walked into the room. Lauren immediately sat up and smiled widely at me, "Hey there, babe." "How's everything been in here? Feeling better, Dinah?" Dinah just smiled softly. She still looked so sick and tired. And Lauren had just taken advantage of her like that. Mother fucking bitch... some days I can't believe I love her.
I walked over to Dinah and grabbed her hand. Lauren just kind of watched, and I ignored her completely. When she did try to touch me, I moved away. "Lo. I kinda want to talk to Dinah alone. You don't mind giving us a minute, do you?" She just smiled right to my face and kissed my cheek lightly on her way out. "Love you girls" she called. "See ya, Lolo" Dinah called out after her. Damn, she's already got poor DJ brainwashed.
I really don't even know how to feel right now. I love Lauren Michelle Jauregui Morgado. I had that weird feeling from the moment she looked at me with those gorgeous green eyes. She had me wrapped around her finger from the beginning, and even more now that we're together. We had only been together for a few months, barely half of a year. I don't know why I couldn't see through that all of this bullshit. Maybe Ally was right... we had hurt each other too much.
"You look a little sick, Mani bear" Dinah said, rubbing my arm reassuringly. I just laughed a little and sat next to her on the bed. "I'm just tired, DJ. It's hard to get sleep when I'm worried about my Goddaughter in there." I poked her stomach and she laughed a little, swatting at my hand. She ran her hand over her stomach, "Your goddaughter and I will both be fine".
Dinah is one of the most inspirational people I know. No part of her life was ever easy. From the beginning, she lived a life just above poverty. She couldn't afford a Christmas some years. And then she had six younger siblings she had to raise. And that's just the beginning.
She's been through so much abuse and so many hardships. And now she was here in the hospital. Sick. With a disease she didn't even fit the statistics for. It just... none of it was fair. And now, after living through hell, she was being told that they wanted to take her baby away. Before she even had a chance to take care of her. How was that fair?
"Mani? Normani, what's wrong?" I didn't even notice I was crying through my silent rant in my head. I moved closer to her and we hugged. "I'm s-sorry. I just, I just want your life to get better from here. I'm so tired of being helpless while you have to struggle alone. You don't deserve any of that. You have every right to keep the baby."
She tensed at that. "How did you hear about that?" I just pulled back slightly and saw her confused face. "Camila came out crying after you guys argued, sweetheart. All her emotions just poured out and she told us everything there was to know about what happened. We were so worried about you guys. I really thought it could break you up."
Dinah sighed, running her fingers through her hair like Lauren does when she's frustrated. "I love Camila, with all I have. I can't leave her. She knows how I feel about having this baby. She's my little girl. We spent months trapped with a psychopath together. And I sang to her every night, like my parents did for me. We've already bonded so much. I don't see how I could just let that go. This is my baby. Baby harmony."
I held her while she cried. Although her face was sad, there was still some anger in her voice. Her tears even seemed angry. Like she was tired of crying. Tired of being told what to do and how to do it. It just wasn't fair to her. "I actually want you to keep the baby. I know you guys are young, but you have great motherly instincts. And you and Mila deserve that family you've been dreaming about."
"I'm just scared Mani" she sighed, laying her head on my chest. "Of what Dinah?" "What if she looks just like him? And I have to look into those eyes again and... and seeing him again. Reliving what happened to me for her to get here. I might not be able to do it Mani." She cried against my chest, and I stroked her hair softly. The sad part is that she was probably right. It would be hard to live like that.
"I did you can do this, Dinah. You'll love that baby despite what they look like... just like you do now. I don't doubt that." She just nodded against me. "Plus, you have them strong ass Poly genes, girl. That bastard wishes your kid would look like him. She'll come out looking just like you. A perfect Poly princess, just like her mother." She just laughed and hit my shoulder, "Shut up, idiot." I'm glad she's starting to feel better.
...but I'm still going to kill Lauren when I get out of here.
