Lights and Sirens

She'll Be Ok

It was dark outside when Gabby and Matt got home. The streetlights where illuminating small parts off the street and there was silence between them all the way home. In the darkness of the car after Matt had turned the engine off, he placed his hand on her leg.

"Are you ok?" He asked as he tried to lean over and kiss her but instead she leaned away and shoved open the door with her shoulder.

Matt sighed before he got out and went after her. The way she was walking told Matt to 'approach with caution' and by God did he agree. Gabby's shoulders where pulled tight so her back was straight and her arms swung loosely by her sides. She dug around in her pockets before she realised that her keys where in her purse, which was in the car. She huffed and turned round but as she did, she looked up just in time to stop herself from walking into her fiancé. He smiled as he held up her bag, which made her smile.

She sighed but with a smile. "Thank you." As payment she kissed him on the lips for a few seconds before beginning to pull away. "I love you."

As she turned to try and put the key in the lock with no light Matt rested his head against her shoulder, partly so he could watch what she was doing but also as a comfort for her. "I love you to."

The door surged open as she pulled the key out and kicked it with the tip of her boot. She dumped her bag down on the table and put her keys into the dish before heading straight for the kitchen and to the fridge. She got out two beers then carried one into Matt, who was still talking off his coat after closing the door behind them both. He took the beer with a warm smile.

"Hey, are you sure you're ok?" He asked placing his hand on her shoulder. She rested her head against it making him smile at her. The makeup around her eyes had smudged just a little after she was crying at the hospital, the last time he'd seen her cry was when Jamie was ill, and even that seemed like light years ago even though it was only a year and a half since he was clear of the cancer. He shuddered with the thought of Jamie laying dead on the hospital bed just before the ECG kicked into action again. Forever he will remember the feeling of relief when he watched his son take the first breath after he had coded. Sometimes he would lay in bed when he couldn't sleep and think about Jamie and the cancer. The cancer especially. He knew it was bad for him, that it was all in the past but he couldn't help but let his mind wander.

Gabby placed her hands on either side of his face. "You're thinking about Jamie and the cancer aren't you." She whispered as she touched her lips to his. She didn't wait for him to answer before she spoke again. "It's all I've been able to think about too." She shook her head and backed away.

Casey followed her into the living room, taking a sip of his beer and shaking his head too. "It was just when the ECG stopped." He took a deep breath just as Gabby walked towards him and pulled him into a tight hug.

"I know Hunny, I know. I haven't been able to get the image out of my head of when Jamie was laying dead on the bed either." She tried to swallow the sob that had bubbled up but it was no use. She pulled Matt closer and began to cry into his shoulder. "When the nurse told Brett that the baby was still borne, I felt so bad but all I could think about was Jamie."

She continued to cry into his shoulder as he held her just a little bit tighter as he focused on not crying. However, with Gabby still quietly sobbing into his shoulder, he squeezed his eyes shut just as a tear slid down his face. He was heart broken for what Brett was going through and he felt utterly selfish for thinking about his son when she should have been directing every happy thought towards her and Jago.

Gabby pulled away and forced a smile into her face. She wiped the tear off Matt's cheek and kissed him. "We've got shift tomorrow sweetie, how about we try and get some sleep?"