I don't think she knew it
But the best day of my life
was the one
Where we sat on the swings
And I took a video
Saying "we are infinite"
And she groaned
And told me to shut up
Because I said it too much.
I don't think she knew it
But I didn't say it enough
Because if I had said it more
Maybe there wouldn't be so many
Scars on my body
But I like them
Without them,
I'm alone.
I don't think she knew it
But when we sang as loudly as we liked
Despite the fact that the window was open
And people could hear
Was all I've ever wanted
All I've ever needed
Was someone to just not care with me
And she gave me that
I don't think she knew it
But when her best friends died
I wanted to, too
Because I could never make her happy
The way that they did
No one could
And it kills me
I don't think she knew it
But when sad songs talk about
that one person that can make you smile
I think of her
I don't think she knows it
But she is
My crying shoulder
She is the love that keeps me from
A messy suicide
She has made me better
As I get older
She's made it feel
Like I have
A fan of my life.
