Showing Love Through Motion

Nervous

It was the day of the results for the show. I had walked up to see about 10 people there looking for their names and then saying darn it I was better than she was or damn he didn't deserve that! Great, there was still 6 girls that hadn't looked yet, so maybe I have a descent chance. I had looked at the list when everyone else had left. A few more girls were coming to look, but waited on me. I searched for either my name or Sara's to see. I was going I be excited for either one of us of course, but there was a part of me that thought if I don't get this then I'll be upset cause I worked so hard for this.

When I got to the paper that said Girl(s) on this I almost started to panic! I was so scared for either getting or not getting this at all. I looked at the boys first to see if either Austin or Zack had got a part, but when I looked, my face dropped to see that neither of them got it. After I looked I had just thought "how on earth could one of them not get it and same guys named Cody and Nathan. Austin and Zack were the best dancers I've ever seen." I then had the guts to look at the girls paper, I had saw the lead role was casted to Sara, but my name was no where on that list. The only name I saw was Sara. There was only one name, but there two names on the boys list. There was a lead role, and I think maybe a brother or something maybe.

I walked out of the studio with a kinda depressed face. I was very happy for Sara getting to do what she loved, dancing and acting, but I was upset that I hadn't made it. I had 2 out of 3 judges clapping for me and standing up, but then again, Sara had all 3 judges. I was glad I walked there because now I could walk home and think about what I was going to do. I know that Sonya said that she said the people that didn't make it out of Sara, Zack, Austin, and I could try out for So You Think You Can Dance, but how am I able to go up there and do the same thing I did yesterday and then get shot down cause I wasn't good enough! I was good during audition but I thought well correct that, think that I wasn't good to the standards they had.

I've very proud for Sara, but I'm now envying her at this moment. When I saw envy I mean like I've never been this jealous before of a person. I really wanted this part, but I guess I still have So You Think You Can Dance in like 3 weeks.