At some point in life you so badly want some closure. I was the same. With all the past relationships I wanted nothing more than that. To understand his point.
But now... not so much. How did I get over him so quick? How is that even possible?
I got over him with in days.
How?
Why?
I do not have any idea. But maybe... maybe because I chose it.
I chose to get over him without knowing what his point of view. Because it was way easier than what he put me through.
But why does his idea of closure hurt me more than then?
Why does it feel like someone is trying to remove a bullet in a very old wound with a bloody butter knife?
Why does his idea of saying sorry also hurtful?
I know you meet some people to learn a lesson, but what did I learn from him? Why was he in my life in the first place...
Did he ever do any good?
Is the line between right and wrong blurry so much that I don’t see which side he swings.?
What the hell is happening?
I chose to stop talking to him without thinking twice. I spent 3 months in absolute pure bliss. No pain. No hurt. I was free.
But now... why do I feel the weight again?
Why am I sad over the fact that I'm losing him, when I chose to push him away in the first place?
Is this wrong? Is pushing him away the wrong thing to do?
Does two wrongs make it right?
Why do I feel like it's my sanity that I have to safety pin back together before my shattered heart?
