Really Social 12 Year Old | Part 1

Chapter 4 || My Worst Regret, My Ex

Chapter 4 || Ex's vs. Crushes.

Now you might be saying "You're too young to have a boyfriend." Um, hello. You're just jealous cause you're old. So back off hater. I recently broke up with my ex boyfriend, Blake. Now he had just came this year to my school and he was a total babe to me. I'm just admitting that now. So I looked for him on Instagram and eventually, after a couple of hours, I found him. You know we exchanged stuff and we talked 24/7. We talked only at home, for example, Snapchat. After a week or 2 he had asked me out. I had liked him from the first day. Now before I continue you may be asking, WTH HAPPENED TO DANIEL?! That's what I said on the first day of school. So I texted him and he said he wasn't coming until this upcoming school year. I was bummed but oh well. Back to the basics. After Blake asked me out I couldn't really decide. Yes, or no? It was hard because at the time I didn't really know him that well, but I just decided to say yes. I thought, if it didn't work out I could just simply break up with him. 4 or 5 months later, we still haven't even talked in person. Not even once. Well we stayed up late at night talking on the phone, which was amazing, but still not a single peep in person, face to face. I loved him. A lot. And he loved me too. Well at least I think he did, so he went and bought me a Lokai bracelet. It was blue. He got a matching one for himself. I loved it so much, it was the best thing I had ever gotten from a guy I had really loved. But at school we had restrictions and they took it away. (To this day, I still don't have it.) Then weeks later he had came up to me and kissed me. I was flushed in red. At a passed school dance he asked he to dance with him but he had to leave. I just wanted to be in his arms. But even before that he tried looking for me but I just kept running away. For the most part I was trying to find my shoes cause I was barefoot. And so basically my night was a total downfall. Since he was so stubborn he told me that it feels like that he has to everything in the relationship. My thoughts had just went to, what? Didn't you like want to have my future children and be my husband? But that totally changed. I know, I know. We are too young and all that but we were only 6th and 7ths graders. So after a huge fight I broke up with him. I'm going to instert the exact paragraph I had sent to him when I broke up with him.

"Look, just because I let u go, doesn't mean I wanted to. And please understand I didn't want it to go this way. (Also don't cut urself or anything bc if u do... Just don't) I did something and I screwed up, I get it. But that's who I am. I'm stubborn, annoying, loud, crazy, and all that but if u can't deal with me I'm cool. U loved me when I didn't love myself. We both have scars that will never heal but maybe that's just how it had to be. These were one of the best 6 months of my life. Thank u. I love u. And I always will. Maybe we should've talked more and talked in person in the first place. But maybe that's just how God planned it. We don't have to follow the rules of a relationship. I'm not perfect. Please don't make this a sad and depressing break up. I want it to be a happy one. (Yes those do exist) we've run out of time and we've come to an end.my life is full of games. This was a game I won't regret playing. Almost is never enough for us. Maybe this is just a break. Maybe in Highschool we can continue our relationship. This is a love I'll have saved for u. I'd like to say we gave it a try. Or maybe we just weren't right. I've tried testing u so many times to see if u really love me but it doesn't seem like it. This love won't last forever. Another reason I'm saying this is because I need to focus on school. And trust me it's pretty hard. U will always be on my mind. I know there's someone better than me out there. I just know it. Ik u don't think there is but trust me I know there is. U just need to know their story. All of it. And no one knows my story. Don't trust anyone. u don't know who is going to be fake, leave u broken hearted or maybe someone is a special person. And ending this I'm going to say we should stay friends for now and maybe we can continue further on in life. Rn I just wanna take a break. Thank u for everything so far. U will always and stay being my best friend. Just remember if u need anything I'm always here. Ily and I will never stop loving u. 💜💜"

But my stupid self didn't realize, was I really a girlfriend that watched over him. Nope, I didn't. He had cheated on me, apparently asking me out was a dare, and was some perverted freak. Now most of his ex's, are my best friends. And that realtionship was a total, pain in the fucking ass. Ladies, stay single, guys are just a distraction in life.