This happens all the time
Friends are never by my side
Making me cry
All the damn time
They don't even care
From all of the despair
As long as their greed is filled
They wouldn't care if I were killed
Those twisted monsters
Laughing in my face
Never defending my race
Even though I claim we are the same
Forcing me into their games
Making sure I always fail
Because I'm too damn frail
Now I'm walking through hail
At least it's hard
And icy
Like I am now
People used to wonder how
How?
How could she turn from kind
To mean?
So fast
My friendships never even last
They always crash
Like my mind
As I try and think between the lines
Not wanting to try
But now I can't even feel my insides
I'm a shell of a girl
That you've seen before
But now I'm empty
Just like we were together
Our friendship was never serious
You used to make my heart ache
Making me cave
Going through personal shit
That never had your name
But still you did it
Affecting me
Asking the wrong people
Letting them frame me
Well now I need
I need mental help
Yet none of you cared
Only she did
But now I wonder something
What if she too....
Were against me....
Secretly scheming
Trying to play me
Like everybody else
The one person who can melt this ice
Couldn't possibly be nice...?
Am I even right?
How can I even decide?
The one I gave my heart to....
Is she here to just crush it?
I told her things
Things that could break
Break me apart
So maybe I should dart.....
Go back to the dark...
Don't want her to break my heart
Because if she does
I won't be able to restart
I'll just be broken apart
Nowhere to go
I think...
I think I'd rather....
Be
Alone

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Poems from the heart of Ariel Cross
PoetryThis is a poem. Interpret it as you will. This is all emotions, so don't accuse this of bullying. This poem was made out of past experiences, and is made to stop racism. With that being said, enjoy!