This Broken Beautiful Thing...

Chapter 9

CHAPTER 9

I wake up a few hours later when someone’s arm wraps around me pulling me into their chest. I instantly know its Jace when he places his one warm hand on my belly under my shirt and rubs it gently. I hear him let out a deep breath as I place my hand over his and he gently laces our fingers together. If it was any other person I would be very uncomfortable by this intimate gesture but with Jace I feel content and safe.

“I’m sorry if I scared you earlier.” He says in a gruff voice against my ear sending chills down my spine, I can smell his minty breath and his fresh body wash still lingering on his skin, he obviously just got out the shower. I don’t respond just nod my head.  What am I suppose to say ? its okay? Because that wasn’t okay! He scared me…

“I just want you and the baby safe is all…I know you haven't seen me so serious before but its who I am, i'm not the kind sweet guy you thought I was and I needed you to know that even if you bring out the child in me. I'm not that person and I never will be Harley, I will never hurt you physically but I am dangerous and if anyone fucks with whats mine I will destroy them. I get what I want and all I want is too keep you guys safe so if scaring you into listening to me does the job I will do it. I apologise for watching you but you still had your underwear on and I didn’t think it was such a big deal. I’ve been thinking about how you looked under those clothes since I met you and I just wanted to see , I want you to trust me to look and not touch. I was just pissed off because I’ve never been chastised for wanting to look before and you caught me off guard by telling me you didn’t want me to look at your body.” He explains to me.

I’m still stuck on the part where he said he’s been thinking about how I looked under my clothes but he’s speaking to me calmly and it eases me so I respond , “I'm not as open with people looking at my body as other girls are , especially now that my body is changing. Caleb is the only guy that’s ever seen me naked, I trust you Jace but I just didn’t want you to look…” I whisper.

“You’ve only had sex with one guy?” he asks as if hes in shock leaning over me to look at my face , I turn on my back and look at him.

“Of course! I’ve been with him for four years , I havn't been single long enough to hook up with other guys…its always been Caleb.” I say looking at him. I can't see him fully in the dark but I can see his glistening eyes.

 “Damn Harley you are just as innocent as you look, doing the same guy for four years? Didn't it get boring?” he says seriously and I start giggling.

"Jace! Haven’t you ever been in a relationship? Technically I wasn’t doing him for four years, I lost my virginity to him at sixteen and no it wasn’t boring. It was beautiful and exciting and I learnt new things, wouldn’t you prefer to sleep with the same girl that you know is clean and hasn’t been touched by so many different guys rather ,than sleep with random chicks that have already been taken by the whole club?” I cringe outwardly and he chuckles.

"Being intimate with one person isn’t always boring , it’s exhilarating and it makes you connect on a whole other level, you teach each other new things and show them what you like. Okay…. I guess for you it’s easy to pick up chicks but imagine not having to go through the effort of finding a chick to hook up with because you already have someone at home already waiting just for you and no one else?” I say looking at him as he watches me intently thinking about what im saying. I can't believe i'm this open with him , usually i'm too shy to talk about this stuff but he already knows my secrets and I can open up so easily with him.

He laughs and falls back down on the bed and rest his heads on his folded arms as he looks up to the ceiling. I lie on my stomach and look at him as he talks to me,.